DEPRESSION | vmin

two

𝙠.𝙩𝙝 𝙥𝙤𝙫

I finished last class and I and chimmy went out to see a movie, "what size popcorn should we get??" chimmy asks while we are in line waiting.

"a small size I'm not that hungry chim chim! but chim chim if I get scared and cry it's all your fault" I pout towards chimmys in a direction.

"Okay okay don't pout like that your cuteness is too much for me," chimmy says bringing me into his arms.

I hesitate in giving in because I was scared of how long my bandages are gonna last, but I give in I don't want this moment to end.

"chimmy while you're ordering the popcorn I'm gonna use the bathroom," I say, "okay taebear but don't take too long," chimmy says.

I go to the bathroom and make sure nobody is in the bathroom with me, there was nobody so I pull up my sleeves and see the blood going through the bandages.

I should have put an extra layer on my arms, I go into a bathroom stall and grab towel paper and wrap it around my arms.

I'm taking too long, I quickly pull my sleeves down and get out of the restroom. "hey why did you take so long? the movie is about to start" chimmy says holding on to the popcorn.

"Sorry I took long chimmy now we should hurry!" I say as we quickly make our way to our seats, we made it just in time the movie had just begun.

I start to worry about my arms if the blood is gonna go through his sleeves. It would be a nightmare if that ever happened to me, today would be the day that it will happen.

I stare towards chimmys direction, I notice that his eyes were glued to the movie. I admire his features he looked so hot... I feel myself blushing, glad the theater is all dark.

I look down at my arms and see that there are drops of blood, I start to panic. He's gonna notice it what is gonna be my excuse? Even if I told him an excuse he won't buy it.

He's suspicious of me now, if he finds out he will think I'm a freak... o-or a psycho! then he w-won't be my f-friend anymore and I'll be alone again.

I don't wanna be alone... I don't want him to leave me, I had friends before him that left me over m-my m-mess.

I DONT WANT TO BE ALONE

DONT LEAVE ME ALONE

PLEASE

ILL CHANGE

ILL STOP C-CUTTING MYSELF

ILL GET HELP JUST P-PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME

"What?! WHAT A MESS YOU ARE!"

"I-I'm s-sorry j-jiminie.... I'll-

"NO you can't do anything to change it, you'll always be a mess why don't you just self harm right now no one cares that you self harm don't stop keeping doing it that's all your good at doing, you are looking fat don't eat anything everything you eat makes you fat it's better to starve yourself!"

"c-chimmy I'll k-keep s-s-self harming a-and starving m-myself P-PLEASE S-STAY WITH ME *sob*"

"P-PLEASE C-CHIMMY... YOUR THE ONLY PERSON I HAVE IN MY LIFE THAT GIVES ME LOVE...!"

"DONT LEAVE ME"

"TAE!?"

"DONT LEAVE ME PLEASE..."

"TAE!! TAEBEAR?!"

"TAEBEAR!" chimmy shouts at me as he has his hands on my shoulders, I look around my surroundings. oh no... no no no I did it again, no I-I did it again I see people staring at me weirdly.

"weirdo..." I hear someone say, I feel everything spinning around me no no NO why did I let this happen?

I'm such an idiot... I'm doing it again, I look at chimmys direction and see him saying something. Everything turns blurry and my ears start ringing, I get up from my seat and run out of the theater.

I need to leave, I can't be here... I can't face chimmy on what just happened. I go into the restroom and close the stall door, I sit on the floor hugging my knees.

I don't want him to leave me.

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