DEPRESSION | vmin

nine

𝙥.𝙟𝙢 𝙥𝙤𝙫

I keep on knocking on the door and still no answer I try calling taetae but still no answer I start worrying even more thinking what I should do until I hear the door open, "taet-

It was his brother "hey jeong is tae home?" jeong looked at me strangely like I did something "yeah he's here what do you need from him?" he asks he was the same height as me so he wasn't intimidating to me if he was trying to be.

"I just need to talk to him real quick" I tell jeong "tae! your friend jimin is here!" jeong shouts I think taetae was upstairs, I see taetae coming and I hug him tightly not wanting to let him go then I heard him hiss in pain I quickly let go and ask "are you okay? did I hurt you?" I look at him and he looked fine nothing on him but he did look a little pale.

"no you didn't hurt me j-jimin! so what did you need?" why did he call me by my name? something is definitely wrong "I just wanted to talk to you wanna go eat somewhere?" I ask him.

he hesitates to answer but agreed to it, the whole time I was talking I notice eyes daggering me alive which was non other then jeong. I'm confused did I do something wrong to him?

"okay tae don't be late..." then jeong brings him close to him whispering something into taetaes ear, I feel my jealousy start to grow I don't know why I mean they are brothers after all but that looks he's giving him and smirk.

I grab taetaes hand and bring him next to me placing his head on my chest, "I'm sorry I don't have much time to talk with tae I'm in a hurry you see don't worry I'll drop him off not to late" I see taetae blushing, god he's so cute.

I see jeong give me a death glare, it felt great to do that my jealousy just washed away. We take a walk over to the cafe it was two blocks away from tae's house, I look over at the short cute boy but he looks like he's thinking about something his expression was motionless.

should I ask him what's wrong?...

I was about to ask him until I feel a arm wrapped around my shoulder "hey! your jimin right? remember me we met on the street I'm jungkook!".

𝙠.𝙩𝙝 𝙥𝙤𝙫

I love hanging out with jimin but now... it's just pain when I'm around him, now that jungkook guy comes out of no where and has his arm around him. I mean jungkook is good looking he is the same height as me just a inch taller and had a beautiful face and everything about him was better then me, I have scars and bruises all over my body I'm fat and disgusting.

He wouldn't want me... I wouldn't either

"ohhh yeah I remember you why are you out here?" jimin asks him, I stayed beside him but I kept my head low listening to their conversation.

"Oh I was just heading to the café I work part time there well only at night" jungkook said, no no... I can't... if he works there he's gonna sir with me and jimin and start flirting with him.

"Ahh I see by the way this is my best friend taehyung but I call him taetae" jimin introduces me to jungkook bringing me into his arms, I blush towards his actions I smell his strong cologne on him.

sigh... why did I fall in love with my best friend?

jungkook gives me a dirty look and I quickly feel my self esteem go down, I don't make eye contact with him knowing he hates me already... I have been through that.

"Nice to meet you anyways we're you guys going?" jungkook asks looking right back at jimin "we are going to eat at the cafe for a little".

"Oh! May I join you guys?" jungkook asks in excitement.

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We get seated and jungkook took a seat next to jimin so I had to sit in front of them, I am already in a bad mood. "okay taetae what would you like to eat?" jimin asks me I look at the menu lazily, "nothing" all I say still looking at the menu not trying to make any eye contact.

"Are you sure taetae? I haven't seen you eat anything yesterday" I felt myself start breaking, I feel the happy, and caring taehyung mask cracking why doesn't he just worry about his girlfriend or jungkook.

"Don't worry about me" I say coldly still not making eye contact, jimin was about to say something until jungkook interrupted him "hey jimin what are you gonna get don't worry it's on the house I work here anyways so" jungkook says smiling madly.

"Okay but I'll just get a coffee or something" jimin says staring at me, I don't want him to worry about me. "you sure? that's just a drink you need food in your system" jungkook says worrying about him, I felt like exploding I didn't wanna be here damn it I should have never came here.

As 30 minutes went by jimin and jungkook have been bonding, I didn't like it but what can I do? I can't do anything. then the unspeakable happened, I see jimin whisper in his ear as jungkook giggles madly and he even went close to jungkooks face.

I didn't wanna be here anymore

"I-I think I should go my brother must be worried s-sick for me" I say getting up from my seat, "but wait taetae I needed to talk to you about something please si-

Then jimin notices my tears flowing down my cheeks I didn't want him to see me like this but he is breaking my heart, no matter if my heart is completely cracked it still keeps on cracking and cracking and it won't stop.

"tae?..."

I quickly leave the cafe and run home, it was freezing but I don't care I couldn't take it being there. I heard someone shout my name but I don't look back, I wanna disappear from this earth.

I have been through this before my use to be best friend... min yoongi.

"hey yoongi I-I need to talk to you about something" I say fidling with my fingers nervously, "what is it shorty?" I blush as the nickname he gave me.

ever since I accidentally called him short he started calling me shorty, but it was a accident but I don't mind the nickname.

"I-I wanna thank you for being there for me... but that's not what I wanna tell you" I start hesitating if this is a bad idea or not yoongi notices and brings me into his arms.

"hey calm down take deep breaths you can tell me anything shorty" yoongi says looking into my eyes, I couldn't hold it in anymore I lean in and kiss him.

I feel him kiss back does that mean he likes me I fill up with joy until he pushes me off, "I-Im sorry tae but I'm not into guys I-I'm sorry" yoongi says and it all became awkward, "oh I'm sorry... uh I think I should go" I say leaving Yoongi I didn't wanna hear what he was gonna tell me.

I was heartbroken... I knew he was bisexual I heard his friends talk about it to, and he even kissed me back. Why would he lie about his sexuality to me?

Am I that ugly? I run not wanting to see yoongi anymore, I can't even face him in school...

I love him so much.

I walk in with tears spilling out and seeing jeong waiting for me, "did he break your heart babe?" he says making my way towards me, I ignore the nickname he gave me I was to numb to even acknowledge it, I nod not wanting to talk.

"How about I make you forget about him~" jeong says caressing my cheeks, moving his hands to my lips. I felt numb... I didn't care if I died or was being used for something I didn't want to do it but I couldn't take all this pain anymore.

So I did what I would never do.

"Fuck me step bro~!".