The Story of Us

Explainations

We stood there, on the stairs, hugging eachother to the point where I almost choaked her, while I was crying into her shoulder. She helped me to get to her appartament and put me on her bed and sat next to me. It was odly quiet so I assumed her mother was with her sister in Germany, where she went to college and her dad was somewhere on a boat, leaving her alone.

-So?... What happened?-She started looking at me with fear in her eyes. It took me a moment to get myself together and start talking.

-Well, for starters, my mom and Attila went to the countryside and I have nowhere to go.- I looked at her knowing I need to give her a complete answer. -And uhh...-The words stopped again. Like there was a wall that didn't let me talk about Harry outloud.

-Ha...Harry and I...we had a fight...-It was too much for me, to talk about it and look at her, so I started counting the circles on the blanket. When I reached somewhere about 50, I continued. -I never saw him yell like that. It scared me, and the fact that it will never be the same scares me even more.- I didn't even realise I started crying untill she hugged me. I felt safe, burying my head in her shoulder. It even made me a little bit calmer. Lucy was so much more than a friend to me, but not even her could make me forget about him. I couldn't even say his name, it hurt too much. I fell asleep on her bed so she had to sleep on the floor. I felt so bad, but I know I'd do the same thing for her. The first thing I saw when I woke up was her laptop stairing at me. I almost fell into a shock when I saw the screen. Her entire Twitter timeline was full of tweets about our breakup. Every single one, about me and him. The same was with Facebook, Instagram and Tumblr. I didn't even want to think what MTV, Sugarscape and the rest of online magazines said.

-But we didn't even break up.- I whispered. In that moment, Lucy walked into the room holding her phone in her hand. She looked worried, more than before.

-What is it?- I asked quickly.

-It was Niall... He's with Harry.- In the moment she mentioned him, it was like a million tiny knives shot my heart. But I couldn't fight it. As much as I said I hated him, as much as I wanted to forget that I ever knew him... I love him. The only reason why I should hate him, is because I love him too much. -Sara, he's not good.- She continued looking at her laptop and then to my face.

-Not good?-

-Niall said that when he came to get him to go to a meeting, which he was already 2 hours late to, he found him crying next to the front door.- Just where I felt him a day ago when I left.- Can't you see? He misses you!-

-I miss him too, but that doesn't change the fact th-

-That what?!-she cut me off. -The boy spent the whole night crying over you, and you're here? Look, you can stay here for as long as you want to, but if I was you, I'd go there and tell him how much I love him in this second.- I wanted to tell her how I'm never going to have a normal life with him. I know, if you love somebody, you'd ignore all the screaming fans and hate, but I've spent my whole life being hated, and I can't take it anymore. I wanted to tell her about everything I missed out on, when I heard my name on E! news. I turned around to the TV, but ended up crying again. She turnted it off and sat next to me.

-I'm sorry. I can't possibly know how it is for you now, but... Give him a second chance. Everybody... He deserves it.-

-I know he does. You're completely right, I just need to clear out my mind for a moment.-

-I get it, just. The way he looks at you, and the way you look at him, it's love. You're my definition of love.-

-You're just saying that to make me feel better.-I said.-I don't know what I'd do if I lost you too.-