The Story of Us

Fix You

I was right. The night had no end. I was just waiting on the beach for something to happen, and it didn't. I've never heard silence that loud. I streched out to the fire with my fingertips so close I almost got burned. But I didn't mind. No pain from the outside could compare to what I felt within. That shattering feeling that you'll never love again. That you'll never be loved. I wanted to cry, but I've wasted all my tears. Just like I've waisted all my happiness. I couldn't just go to the store and buy some more. It doesn't work that way. Everyone gets one chance... And I blew it. I never actually understood love before, because I've never felt it. And I thought that it wouldn't be such a shame if I lost it. But as soon as he came I kept holding on to it like it's the most precious thing in the world. And it is. You'll never feel so fufilled in your life untill you have someone to share your joy with. Untill you have someone that stands behind the smile on your face. You'll never know what's the point of life untill you have someone who's responsible for the butterflies in your stomach. But what happens when you loose that someone? And when you don't feel the slightest chance that he's ever coming back. Well, your will for life goes down with that person. You want to cry, scream and rip your heart out... But you do nothing. You're so confused that you've lost all your ability.

I heard a rustle behing me. A few meters away Jeremy was hauling along the sand. He dropped down and started pulling his brown hair. I didn't want him to see me. Not like this. I got up and carefully started to run away.

-It's okay...- I fell over a rock. -You can laugh.- he wiped away a tear from his eye. -I'd do the same thing if I were you.-

-I wasn't planning on it, but-

-But what? Go ahead. Tell the world!-

-I would...- I crouched next to him. -Except the world is miles away from us.- he smiled for a brief moment. Even though it was dark as hell, I could see it in his eyes that something was torturing him from the inside. -What's wrong?- I tried to be as friendly as I could.

-Alaine...- he whispered. -That was her name... The girl with who I fell in love with. The girl who broke my heart.-

-What about her?-

-Tyler found a jacket in the wreckage... It was hers.- he broke down. I started patting his shoulder.

-Oh God... Give me the strenght to survive this.- I thought looking up.

-She came after me. And now she's gone.-

-I know how you feel.-

-No, you don't! I've loved that girl for years. And you and your Harry guy have known eachother for a few months.- I was so close to slapping him.

-What?!- I screamed. Nothing has changed in our ''relationship''. -Does it really matter? For how long have you known somebody? Listen to yourself. -I was furious. -It doesn't matter. Harry and I maybe haven't been going out for a long time. Maybe we rushed into things, but I love him more than anything in this world. I know him better than anyone, and he does me. Time doesn't matter.- but our time together ran out.

-I, I...- he sighed. -I guess you're right.-

-Ofcourse I'm right.-

-But if that plane didn't crash... We'd be together now... All of us would.- Jeremy would be with Alaine. Tyler would be with his fiancee´. Gabriella, Alex and Skye would be with their family. And I would be with Harry.

-I guess that crash did screw with all of us.-

-Amen!- for the first time the smile he gave me was real. Not a fake ''I can't stand you smile'', but a real, full on smile. I smiled back.

-Look!- he shouted. -You can pull your face into that, that thing.- he pointed at me.

-A smile?-

-Yes! Why do we keep fighting? What's the point of all of it? One of us ends up being hurt, and the both of us end up being mad.-

-Why don't we stop fighting?-

-Pinkie swear.-

-What?- he wrapped his pinkie finger around mine.

-I swear we won't fight again.-

-I swear.- I repeted. I couldn't help but look at him. His dark brown straight hair was dancing in the wind while his endless black eyes were stairing at me. He was a complete opposite of him, but there was something in him that just didn't want to leave me alone. Maybe it were his full lips? Maybe it was the cute mole on his nose? Either way, I couldn't look away. I was afraid of what could happen if I didn't. Maybe, just maybe I could fall for him.

I went week in the knees.

-Are you okay?- he grinned.

-I think so.- his face mesmorised me. I had a feeling I forgot something, but I didn't know what it was.

-Good.- he whispered leaning in closer to me. Every moment while he was approaching me I tried to remember that something. But my mind was empty. Every inch inside it was blocked by the thought of what happens next. I closed my eyes. I was too afraid of the outcome. I felt a quiver in my heart and tummy before he finally kissed me. I didn't want to let go. I know I should, but I couldn't.

In that moment I realised why did I feel so guilty. Harry. I pulled back.

-God! No, no, no!!! This can't be happening. Tell me this didn't happen.- I was panicking. I kissed another guy. And I liked it... But love, it's infinite, right? You can create more, and that doesn't mean someone else will be getting less.

And he, he was gone.

-Sorry.- he looked down.

-Help!!!- we heard a sound from the other side of our little island. We quickly looked at eachother and rushed away.

-What is it?- he asked, blocking my view. Gabriella and Tyler were sharply  looking at me. I looked at the thing on the floor. The person on the floor. After so much time I finally saw him again. I finally saw Harry.