The Story of Us

Another One

-Gabriella!- I screamed. -Help!- maybe now it was him. Maybe God gave him back to me.

-What is it?!- she appeared next to my shoulder a second later. I wasn't moving. I was too afraid of what might I find. Maybe it was him, maybe it wasn't. Maybe he was alive... Maybe he wasn't. In a matter of seconds my life will change. I've felt it before. A million times. 

-Sara?- I ran to the lifeless body washed up in front of me with my eyes closed. I turned him around- and I felt relieved. It wasn't him. I couldn't bear looking at the boy I love with his life torn appart from him. And the boy I love wasn't here. -Tyler!- Gabriella yelled a moment before he turned up behind a palm tree. I kept looking at the unknown boy's face while a part of me was hoping it was Harry. And my entire self was hoping that he was alive. They looked alike, all wet like that. Same shade of brown in the hair, same child-like eyelids but not the same person. I put two fingers on his neck trying to find a heartbeat. I felt the blood running trough his veins. Tyler and Gabriella grabbed him  and yanked him to our little campside. I was left petrified by the sea. Even the smallest things like breathing and moving seemed so unknown. It was like I was a person who just woke up from a coma and was trying to familiarize with life again. My body walked back to our shelter but my heart was still standing on the beach- tangled in a web of sand and sea. I wish memories were flammable. So that one spark of rage inside me could burn all those precious moments I had locked up deep inside of me. Then it wouldn't hurt. I'd just be left with a strange feeling of emptiness on the inside. I wouldn't know what it is or where it came from. I'd just know something is missing.

-Are you okay?- Gabriella whispered while hoding up a wet mop on his forehead. I nodded.

-Is he?- I murmemed before sitting next to them.

-He's better. His fever went down.- I hugged my knees. -Sara?- my head jumped to the sound of my name. -What's wrong?- where to begin? I'm going to die on an island in the middle of nowhere, or the fact that I don't know is he dead?

-I miss... Him.- I muttered as tears filled my eyes. She sat next to me and hugged me. I found a motherly figure in her. I don't know what was it in her that would make me so calm. -I don't know where he is. I don't know what happened. I don't know what is going to happen.- I started crying even more. 

-Look up.- she raised my chin to the sky and sun that has already started setteling down. -We don't know what's up there, the stars, space, and universe... But we feel it in our hearts that it's true. Maybe you don't know where he is, but you can feel him in your heart.- she smiled and looked at me. -What do you feel?-

-I don't know.-

-Not know. Feel.- I sighed and closed my eyes trying to get lost in my thoughts.

-I feel...- I stopped. -I feel he's alive.-

I woke up somewhere in the middle of the night next to the fire. I remembered the campfire he kindled when we went to Chesire. I saw faces in the warm flames. Him, my mum, Lucy, Anne, Gemma, the boys, Lux, my family. I realised how I missed them, but how do they feel? Safe and sound at home while I'm here. Do they miss me? Do they miss us? Ofcourse they do. And that's what kills me. They all feel pain because of me. -Am I really that selfish?- I whispered. 

I've tried to keep myself busy for the past few days so I would take my mind off of things. It helped, but only for a while. Wrecks from the plane got washed up on the shore and we built a shelter out of that. Even some food floated by, so we weren't doomed to fish the entire time. But supplies and a roof over my head were the least of my problems.

-You know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to be.- I quietly started singing. -My love... My heart is breathing for this.- tears filled my eyes. -Moment in time, I'll find the words to say...- I stopped. -Before you leave me today.-

-You have a nice voice.- an unfamiliar voice echoed around the night. -Don't stop because of me.- it was the unknown boy.

-Thanks...-

-I'm Jeremy.-

-Sara.- I avoided his eyes.

-You have a nice name too.-

-Thanks.- I sighed. -So, what's your story?- I didn't want me to become the topic of our almost conversation.

-I was born in Annecy. Lived there until I was 10...- he smiled. -Then my parents died and I went to live with my mom's family in Ireland. Three years ago I went back home to visit my parent's grave. When I was there this girl approached me. I remembered her from when we were little and used to make snowmans in the winter. Anyway, we fell in love. You know how that story goes.- unfortunately I did. I wrote one. -A few weeks later I went back to Dublin. We said we'll try the entire long distance relationship, and we did. We didn't think we'd make it but it lasted for months. I visited on the summer and things were great...- he looked down. -A week ago I flew to France again, but only to find her dating another guy. She said it was over for months.- he was hurt. 

-Well the atmosphere on this island is just peachy...- I thought.

-I went to the airport and bought a ticket for the next flight... I was just unlucky enough that it was that one... What's up with you?- 

-Girl falls in love with a boy,- boy happens to be famous. -girl and boy move in together, get engaged, have a fight, boy wins over girl again, boy and girl get re-engaged, boy and girl happy, boy and girl go on a trip, boy and girl go home, boy and girl's flight collapses into ocean...-

-Boy sounds like a douche.-

-Why?-

-Well, you got into that fight and he won you over again. Seriously, like ''how low can you go''?-

-What is wrong with you?!- I started yelling. -You never met him. You don't know him! So how can you possibly know what's he like?!- now I had to look at him.

-He just sounds like every other douchebag idiot out there.- he looked at me. His dark brown, almost black eyes were looking into mine.-

-Well he's not...- I looked away. -He's actually one of the nicest people I ever met.- I started whispering. -At least he was...- my voice broke while I started crying again.

-Okay...- he said in a sarcastic way.

-You know what?! Your girlfriend? She did the right thing leaving you. I would do the same thing if I was in her shoes.-

-Good for you.- he sighed. I got up and started a dramatic escape, just like Lou would do right now.

-Look, you can say what you want about me,- I turned around in a flash. -but you have no right saying anything about Harry.- I started running.

-Harry?! That's his name?- he started laughing like crazy. -What is he? 80?- I never doubted Anne's choice of baby names. And I won't start doing it now. I didn't stop walking until I lost him out of my sight. He was actually making me sick. I fell on the sand with my back.

-I need you here.- the words coming from my mouth started getting louder. -I need you here, you idiot!!!- I didn't really like the idea of calling him an idiot, but I've never been this mad. 

-You hear me?!- I was pretty sure everyone in a range of 5km could hear me. -I need you.- I broke down. 

-Why did you leave me? Why did you break your promise?-