TOGETHER (completed)

𝕀𝕀 𝔾𝔼𝕋ℍ𝔼ℝ - 𝐵𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑢𝑠 (20)

When Aaron left, Krystal got in the car with him. I think I did well, I say to myself. Although it doesn't sound so, I think I handle it well. From now on, I will focus on my life. Before I could do anything else, my happiness must come first. It's Aaron's wish.

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"Wanna grab a sandwich at Subway?" Ian asks me as we are waiting for the bus.
"Sure, but let's also bring Mia."
Ian doesn't seem to agree with this idea, "I will get one for her when I go back, I just want to spend time with you."
"Time?"
"Am I too straightforward?" He scratches his head.
I try to hold in my laughter, "of course, that's a disadvantage, you won't be able to hide your lie."
"Hey," he touches my arm slightly, "at least my honesty won't make someone confused."
"I'm surprised that Krystal treats you nicely," I say.
"That's because she knows me well... if she acts up she will know that I will try to break her scheme," he smiles.
"So technically, you saved me earlier?"
He shakes his head, "I think the real winner is Aaron, he speaks a few words and it makes her go quiet."
"That's because she likes him, isn't it normal to leave a good impression on your crush?"
"Not always, did you see I make any impression in front of you?" He looks at me in the eye, but I break the silence.
"Well, true, it doesn't always have to be the impression, it could be something good other than that."

Here's the thing about crushes, you leave impressions on them so that they will look at you differently, at least in my opinion. When I was in my Sophomore year in high school, I had a crush on this guy that everybody seems to be friendly with. He gets along with them, so I don't dare to be "that" person he always hangs out with. I tend to be outgoing with other people, but whenever it comes to him, I almost forgot who I am. When I talked to him, he was sweet, he also got that great personality of all you can ask for. Since I liked him and was always focused on being "excited about liking him," nothing happened. But what made those days good was that I got to see him, his smile, and the way he behaved. When he was near me, I forgot how to breathe, and when he's away I finally let out a big sigh. It's just those little things that made me excited, thinking about it is funny because all I did was liking him. But I moved on, we got at least one of those people in our life that makes us feel that way.

But for Aaron, it's different from him. I'm me when I'm with him, I didn't have to hide the real me. There's a saying: love someone who loves the real you. Nothing can be more true than that, since I'm me when I'm with him. I develop a good bond with Aaron because we are comfortable with each other. You can say he's someone that I need in my life, the one I want to make memories with and store it in our heart. Although Aaron doesn't seem like he cares, the more you know him, he's someone that can give you a paragraph just to make yourself feel better. I like that about him, he spends his time just to talk about someone he barely knows.

Also, he got that childish vibe with him, he surely can make jokes just to make your day. But those types of people get hurt easily. Usually, the outgoing ones are always the one that has a deep scar inside, just like Aaron. They are outgoing and it seems like their job is to light up other peoples' worlds, but they forget about themselves. When they are alone, they would think that "the real me is right now." But, if someone who has a similar situation with that person meets, we call that "chance." That chance gives us hope, knowing that we have someone by our side so we won't be lonely. We won't be left behind. Instead, that person can make you find happiness again, and that's the case for us, Aaron and me.

When I let him go, I do regret, but sometimes it's okay to abandon happiness for peace. But for some people, they would think why would you turn down someone you also love. They said you are not truthful to them, and that the love you have for them was not sincere. I get it. It may seem that way when I talk to Aaron, I might look like the bad one. But, sometimes separation leads to a better understanding of us so that when we get to know each other again, we won't let each other go.