Califournia Love

Thoughts (part 1)

My flight was expected to take about 6 hours to arrive in New York it ended up taking about 9. When my plane landed, I was exhausted and desperate to get to a cozy bed and snuggle up with big blankets and sleep.

But only one problem.

I have nowhere to go especially since my family sold the house. Why didn't I think of that situation before I came here? I guess a hotel it is. I flag down a taxi and shove my bags into the back seat.

"Where do you want to go?" The grey haired taxi driver asks.

"Uh. I guess any hotel will do." I say putting my seatbelt on.

The driver quickly pulls into the crowded streets and turns the radio on.

"We got more of your favorite music artists up next but first here's Sweater Weather by The Neighborhood." The radio announcer says. Just great.

I could feel my heart drop when I heard Jesse's voice. I left them for a reason but of course I still miss them. As Jesse's voice soothes my ears like it always did I could feel my face get hot and tears welling up in my eyes. I don't want the taxi driver to think I am an emotional wreck or something who cant even listen to a single song. But its not the song. Its the boys who perform the song.

I use my hand to unnoticeably wipe my eyes. I promised myself not to get emotional so I won't.

Well, maybe just a little. I have the sudden urge to just tell the taxi driver to turn around and head back to the airport. I want to go back to California just to hug those boys. I regret not giving them a proper goodbye because I don't know when I will see them again.

"Okay we are here." The taxi driver announces as he pulls to the curb of the street.

"Where are we?" I look around at the big black buildings.

"Westin Hotel. Its nice and not too expensive." He states.

"Oh, great. Thank you. " I hand him a 20 dollar bill and grab my bags. I stumble trying to get out of the cab.

"Ow!" I exclaim as I knock my head against the edge of the door. I like to think nobody noticed. I can here the driver snickering as I close the car door. That is definitely not my proudest moment. I gather my suitcases on the sidewalk and march straight into the big black building.

I stand there a moment to gather my thoughts. I take several deep breathes as I make my way to the concierge.

Honestly, i am scared. I am scared of what will happen to my life from here. But more importantly I'm scared of what will happen to the people I love. I haven't even checked the messages on my phone but I could feel it vibrating in my coat pocket since I left Jesse's house. I will have to face them sooner or later but..ehh.. I choose later.

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Authors Note
Hi! How are you guys? I'm so sorry I have been kind of M.I.A. lately. I will make it up to you, I promise! So here is a very short chapter for you. You will get a longer chapter very very soon! Keep commenting and voting and feel free to put in your thoughts of where you want this story to go or message me :) I love talking to you guys. Every single one of you are amazing.