{Yandere EreMika} Only Mine...

Chapter 30: Saving

Mikasa's POV

If life doesn't have a meaning... what's the purpose to live? Without my Eren... there is no meaning for me to live. He was the fire... and it's gone. How can I walk down a path of darkness? I wanted to find out where my fire went... where it was hidden. To destroy everything that took him away from me. 

Isolated within this prison, I shivered without my light near me. I could feel the tears dripping down my face as I cried for it. Wept. Begged. Hoped. But nothing ever came to me. If I ever counted the time I've been in here... I would've lost count within the first hour. 

Sleep beckoned me home... but I didn't listen a word that it had to say for me. My eyes kept open, wet with my tears as I waited for a word of freedom. A word of my lost flame. Yearning for such an answer, I waited. I waited for ages- just nothing. 

The sight of seeing that woman walking in was nothing but more knives striking into my heart. She tells me to get up- and I do. With chains trailing behind me- a heavy weight in my legs and heart- I followed in hope of my flame in my mind. Thankfully... the weight finally lifted. 

"Eren!" Was the first word I've spoken, no- yelled, aloud. I ran to him, hearing him grunt when I fell into his warm arms. How the world suddenly lifted up in bright colors compared to the dulled colors. The tears I would cry were nothing but pure joy. "Eren..."

His hands crawled up my back as I held him closer. His soft chuckles of life were so fulfilling. "Hey, Mikasa."

I nuzzled into his neck, smelling his unique scent that he possesses. "You're safe... you're safe."

"Why wouldn't I be?" He says, looking away. "Mikasa... you need to tell everything you've done to the agent."

Freezing, I could hear those words echoing in my empty heart. Confession? Agent? All this caused for chaos in my field. I... I could be... Eren... everyone...

The first thought that came into mind was... Eren was a traitor to me. "Everything's alright... I promise." Sure. Words of reassurance. But was it trustworthy? "It's okay... tell her everything."

I shook my head, "No. I'll be taken away. If I say something about those things... I'll be thrown back into the pits of emptiness- Eren, I won't do it. Never. I don't want to leave you. Eren, please... don't do this to me... don't... don't do this... please..."

"Mikasa Ackerman," the agent says, "with whatever you say, you can plead insanity. I want these cases solved, but I can also see how dangerous your bloodline can be. Plead insanity, and yes, you'll be away from Eren. But I can promise you that he can see you from time to time. He won't be fully gone."

"I want him... as family..." I whispered under my breath. "If I do that... I can't have a life with him."

"He's not yours to keep. He's not an animal, Mikasa. His name is Eren Jaeger. Another human being. Are you willing to torture him as well?"

"No..."

The agent takes her seat in front of us, watching with those cold eyes of hers. "Mikasa... do you want him to be happy? Look at him, Mikasa. Look at Eren. Does he seem happy to you? Your actions in the past, does he approve of them? You're hurting him, Mikasa. Do the right thing and let go of him."

I shook my head, seeing into his green eyes. "I-I can't. I can't."

Eren speaks gently, holding me close. "Mikasa, it's alright. I'll be fine. Do it for me."

With tears falling down my cheeks, I nodded and began to rant about what kind of monster I was... a monster without a heart. A monster without feelings. A demon who killed people to protect the one I love. An obsessive person who cared too much for Eren. Every word of my mind spoken aloud. Each thought out in the air as my life laid ruined. 

How can a demon like me be rescued...? That's the thing. There's nothing left to save of me.