I Risked It All For You | A Kleinsen Fanfic | WIP

006 -You Will Be Found-

TW: Suicide Attempt Mentioned
Indent means flashback ok bye!!

-Evan's POV-

I was sitting on a chair next to the auditorium and my legs were trembling so much I felt like I was on a plane with turbulence. My teacher was making an announcement about how I was going to give this  "big speech to avenge my best friend Connor".

Oh god.

"And now, please welcome Evan Hansen! Connor Murphy's best friend!"

Oh god.

I got up and I felt my hands sweating and my legs shaking. The entire school was there which only made my heart pound faster. I heard their force applause from the teachers as I stepped onto the stage.

"H-hello students and faculty...I would just like to say a few words a-about my best friend...Connor Murphy..."

I felt a lump in my throat and my anxiety making me wanna cry. I wiped my palms on my jeans and looked out. I saw my home room, Alexander and John, Heather McNamara, Zoe, and...

Jared...

I felt butterflies in my stomach and my face go red, not just from the nerves. He...smiled at me, and nodded his head. I took a breath. "Connor might not be here now...but there's a chance to save him. T-to help him."

I took a glance at Jared, then back at the crowd. "I-I almost lost my best friend...and....

~Flashback To Freshman Year~

Jared had been sort of distant. It hasn't exactly been the same since middle school, which hurts, but, I'm sure he'll come around sooner or later.

I felt a tap on my shoulder, and when I turned around, it was him, and I felt a smile appear on my face.

"H-hi Jared!"

"Hi Evan! How have you be-"

"Woah Kleinman, do you know this freak?"

Oh no....

We both turned and it was Dustin Kropp. I thought Jared would do what he normally did when we were in middle school. He would say 'Yeah F off!' And grab my arm and yank me somewhere else.

But, looking back on it now...I shouldn't known that he grew up. And I didn't.

"N-no. No I don't. My mom is just making me hang around him because she'll get me a car if I'm nice to him." And looked me straight in the eye, without a hint of regret. He didn't even look like he was lying either. "He's an annoying freak I just want to get rid of him." And at that second I felt my heart shatter.

It felt like it was a piece of glass dropped on cement and it's remains fly in every direction. "Woah ho ho! Hey do you want to hang out with us instead? You can just lie to your mom and say you were nice to him." Dustin asked glaring at me like I had done something wrong and patting Jared's back like he had just succeeded at something. What the fuck did he succeed at?!

"...uh..sure." And he left me standing there. I don't think I've ever felt more embarrassed or stupid in my entire life.

~Flashback Ended~

"...and it was one of the worst feelings in the world. I couldn't compare it to anything else. It made me feel so empty..." I looked back out. "And that is a feeling...I never want anyone in this room to feel." I took a breath.

"I started the Connor Project. A virtual student group dedicated to helping Connor get the money he needs for the hospital bills, a fundraiser...showing that everybody should matter."