Forever After

Maybe my mom is right though.

"Bye Selena and any time."

I walked into the house, Thank god my mother was still asleep. But I know she will wake up any minute. So I ran up to my room and laying down and pretended I was asleep and then my mom woke up and when into my room

"GET UP! I NEED YOU FOR THINGS YOU NEED TO DO AND DIDNT DO IT YESTURDAY!'

I just laid there a pretend I was in a deep sleep

"GET UP! EVEN THOUGH YOU PROBALY CAN DO WHAT I NEED YOU TO DO CAUSE YOU ARE WORTHLESS!" And then pulled me out of the bed by my hair and beat me.

I got up and screamed "IM UP WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? I WANT TO SEE IF I CAN DO IT BEFORE YOU CALL ME ANYMORE WORTHLESS!"

"DONT SCREAM AT YOUR MOTHER LIKE THAT! SELENA I WANT YOU TAKE THE TRASH OUT AND THEN GET THE MAIL!"

"OKAY AND FOR YOUR INFORMATION I CAN DO THAT!"  I said and stromed out of my room and when down the stairs and when outside

I text Justin "OH MY GOD! my mom's being a pain like usally"

He texted back "What did she do this time?"

I texted back "Well I pull me out of my bed by my hair and then started kicking me and then she told me I need to do stuff and then she said that I probaly couldn't have done it cause im worthless."

He texted "Your mom has promblems,  trust me your not worthless and you need to do what you need to do so you can show her you can do it."

I texted back "Thanks Justin I know im not and I will."

I put my phone in my pocket and took out the trash and got the mail.

"Okay mom im I done yet? I took out the trash and got the mail. "

* gave the mail to her*

"Im so proud of you and yeah your done" She said sarcastically

"Yeah" I turned around and rolled my eyes 

*then I walked outside and laid on the grass, then looked up at the sky and thinking*

 I mean I never really done this before but I just felt like doing it.

I mean I didnt have anything to do so I just texted Justin

I texted him 

"Maybe, My mom is right maybe I am just worthless. Maybe im just not good for anybody. Maybe my life is just a screw up. Maybe this is how its going to be forever. Maybe I am an ugly human. Maybe all thoughs people at school last year and my mom are right, Maybe I am just a dumb and have no right or reason to live."

and I put my phone down and just laid there not moving just looking up at the sky, With so many thoughts in my head.

I thought to look and see if I go a text for Justin. I did It read 

"No Selena she not there no right, You are not worthless. You mean something to me and your good enough for me, thats all you need Selena. just forget about everyone else. Its not going be like this forever, It gets better. You just have to wait. You are beautiful and lovely. You're not dumb you are very smart and you do have a reason to live everyone has a meaning to live."

I put 

"Maybe they are though. What if it is forever. How do you know? and no im ugly and yes im dumb. I know I dont."