Something Beyond The Silence

Chapter Two

Chapter Two

Magkaharap kami ngayon ng lalaki na bigla-bigla na lang sumulpot at nakaupo pa sa tapat ko nang hindi ko namamalayan.

Napaayos ako mg upo at mas niyakap pa ang sarili. Hindi ako nagsalita at mataman lamang siyang tinitigan. Siya naman ay napaiwas na ng tingin at uminom sa bote ng beer na hawak-hawak niya.

The silence should be awkward but somehow it isn't, well, at least for me. And I don't know why.

I should be creeped out na hindi ko narinig ang pagdating niya o naramdaman man lang. But it's not a big deal for me right now which is really weird.

Ilang minuto kaming ganoon nang bigla na lang siyang tumayo at maglalakad paalis.

"Where are you going?" I asked out of nowhere. I'm also shocked with what I just said.

"Leaving."

"But this is your spot right?"

Umayos siya ng harap sa akin and I saw how his face is now laced with amusement. "Yeah, but I'll leave so you won't have to be uncomfortable."

"Who says I'm uncomfortable?" Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay.

I saw him smirk bago bumalik sa kanyang pwesto. Nagtitigan kami saglit pero siya ang unang umiwas ng tingin. He sipped on his beer again habang binalot kami ng katahimikan.

Napangiti ako at saka kinuha ang bote ko na nasa table. I took a sip, trying to appreciate the bitterness that invaded my mouth. Hindi ko rin maalis ang tingin ko sa lalaking nasa harap. Now it looks like I'm the creep! Iniwas ko na rin ang tingin ko dahil baka siya naman ang hindi komportable. Bumalik na rin ako sa pagkakasandal at nag-cross ng legs.

I'm not sure with what I'm doing. Like, why did those words just came out of my mouth and encourages him to stay when being alone would have been a lot better. Or would it?

I only took some sips off of my beer so I'm obviously not drunk. I also know how to talk to people so hindi naman nakakagulat na i-approach ko siya or something. Pero nakakaduda lang sa sarili na i badly needed a silent soace right now pero nagyaya pa ako ng para bang kasama.

But was it because the guy is cute?

Uminit ang mukha ko. That's so mababaw! Pero I sounded like I was initiating the first move kanina.

Napangiwi ako sa idea na baka iniisip ng lalaki na nasa harap ko na I was hitting on him or something. Baka mamaya dahil sa sinabi ko ay lumaki ang ego nito.

No one spoke and we can only hear is the distant sound of the music. Nabaling muli ako sa kanya at hanggang ngayon ay nakatingin pa rin siya sa ibang direksyon. Dahil doon ay napagbigyan ko ang sarili ko na pansinin ang detalye ng kanyang mukha.

He has an almond shaped eyes. His nose is really pointed. Defined jawline and thin lips. He's also mestizo. At kahit sa distansya ay nakita ko pa rin ang maliit na mole sa ibaba ng kanyang kanang mata niya. He's wearing a simple white shirt and black jeans. He looks really cute and boyish.

Mukhang may dumagdag sa listahan ng mga crush ko.

For me, bukod sa mga libro, crushes are my only source of kilig or some sort. There are guys na lumalapit sa akin to flirt but I never really entertain them. Diretso sila as friends. I understand why people think that flirting is fun and all but it's not my thing. It always felt like I'm just wasting time receiving empty words from people who are not serious. Kaya I'd rather do something I like than that.

But crushes? They're different for me. I never became close to anyone that I had a crush on. I always just admired them from afar. At mas kinikilig pa ako na ganoon.