Born to die

The funeral and afterwards ch. 11

Katie got her abortion and caspar is to depressed about Oliver to be upset that katie killed his unborn child. Today is the funeral and Katie and I are both wearing black. Caspar left early to help with funeral preparations.
We are leave now and get in the car I drive. it has been 5 days sense Oliver has died and Katie hasn't said shit about him. not even cried. I'm starting to get pissed at her.
"You haven't said shit sense Oliver died... what is the problem?"i ask.
"Nothing is wrong....i just have a lot going on to where I don't have time to grief". That bitch. A lot going on for her is a broken nail or a break up. My cheeks get warm and I squeeze the driving wheel and keep in what I was about to say.
We got there and it is a church with chairs all around facing the stage which only has Oliver in his sealed casket and lot of flowers. his dad and grandmother are there along with a whole bunch of his relatives I have no interest in knowing but Oliver was family to me. His family is my family especially at an event like this.
We are in our seats and a man, Oliver's dad walks on stage and said a lot of stuff about Oliver and what a great son he was. after about an hour and a half of talking it was time to bury him. I try not to explode into tears. not sad tears but anger tears the ones you get when you are furious. what drove Oliver to this suicide? Or a better question, who?who drove him to the absolute limit to where he couldn't take it any more?

After the funeral I go back to the university. it's still the break so we can hang around school campus or go home. I stay in my room and katie is with her mom. I am just sitting in my room thinking about this overwhelming feeling inside me and then I hear a knock. then I hear a voice I didn't hear what they were saying but I could use some company so I open the door and couldn't help but smile.

"Joe"I say with relief.
" I heard about the accident and had to see you...." he says sincerely.
I say nothing and just kiss him and he kisses back and then we get into a full on make out session. next thing I know we are naked in my bed panting and tired after a long day. I lost my virginity on my best friends funeral day. I was upset so we basically had cheer up sex. it kind of worked. its been a long day.