Kokichi? {Oumasai/Saiouma} {HIATUS}

-21-

The school year was already halfway through. The end of the year was coming closer and that meant that they would be graduating together. At least that is what the both of them hoped for. They wanted to be able to go to college, well Shuichi wanted to go to college anyway. Kokichi just wanted to be with Shuichi all the time, being able to actually live together with him, being able to help him with homework, being there for the good times, and the bad times. He wanted to spend all of it with Shuichi because he was so special to him.

They had midterms tests coming up and Shuichi was always worried he wouldn't end up doing well enough on them...while Kokichi wasn't concerned at all, well that's what Kokichi made him believe. I'm reality Kokichi studied as much as he could when Shuichi wasn't around because he wanted to be able to not make his beloved stress out while he is working on his own studying.

He usually just texts him and tells him he is with Rantaro helping him with homework, while he goes to the library to study. This is because when he goes with Shuichi he feels embarrassed when he doesn't understand something...but he loves being able to help Shuichi when he gets stuck! So he studies on his own to make sure he can't help Shuichi with anything he would need help understanding.

Winter is coming along with the midterms. Kokichi hates the cold because he loves going outside and running around with his friends and mostly with DICE. Shuichi on the other hand loves the cold because of how he can stay inside. He gets to sit in his comfortable clothes with Kokichi in his lap while he reads to him. Having Kokichi with him while they both drink hot chocolate while talking about their day. Even though he dislikes when Kokichi pulls him outside into the snow...he loves seeing the smile on his face and he absolutely loves when they get to go back inside and make each other warm again.

"I should get this done..." Shuichi said looking down at the homework in front of him. He couldn't bring himself to get it done...because while Kokichi is gone he is always feeling so alone.

This feeling isn't new to him or anything. He is alone quite a lot and he enjoys it...the peace and quiet. But without having Kokichi there with him...it's just so cold and lonely. Even if they aren't talking just being able to have his presence in the room it feels so much brighter and calmer to Shuichi.

He sat back into his chair and frowned. He knew he would feel more distracted and could even possibly forget about this feeling for a little bit if he occupied himself with something else. But he couldn't bring himself to it.

He wasn't sure why, but for some reason his heart didn't want him to feel happy without Kokichi there next to him...but Kokichi had to work and this wasn't something new. He and Rantaro work together at his father's business. It's mostly because he can make his own hours and because one of his friends is the boss's son. He loved that Kokichi liked going to his job...but he still didn't like not having him by his side.

Another sigh left his lips. "Come on Shuichi," He said before moving back to get the work done. He had to read some articles and write a short essay on the information. It was about modern issues about the government and what has been going on in the world. He wasn't worried about being able to complete it...he just didn't want his kind to wander to the feeling he was having so he would have a breakdown.

After an hour or so he had finished his homework and he looked back at the clock...Kokichi had been gone for three hours and it was getting late. 'He has never been back this late...' He thought to himself looking over to the door before glancing at his phone. Looking for a message or something from Kokichi explaining why he wasn't already back.

He eventually decided it was best to not dwell on it and pulled out his book and sat on the bed. His head against the head of the bed while his hands moved to Kokichi's pillow. He pulled it closer to him and held it in his lap to try to make it seem the same as if Kokichi was there.

He read out loud as he would if Kokichi was there with him. But he wasn't and eventually as the night became more apparent as it became later...Shuichi decided to clean up the room and get ready for bed.

Brushing his teeth was hard and getting dressed in his pajamas wasn't great either. Even though he always complains when Kokichi is always interrupting everything he does...he really sees it as Kokichi caring about him. And right now without that...it felt so wrong.

With a heavy heart and droopy eyes Shuichi made his way over to the bed. He looked at Kokichi's pillow that was still against the bedframe from when he was reading his book. He looked at it with a frown.

I want him to be here...was the only thing he could think. But he knew he shouldn't call him while he is at work, because he either wouldn't pick up, or would get in trouble again for calling him. So, he decided against it and just moved the sheets before falling into the bed. He stared at the ceiling for a while before he moved his hands to the pillow. He pulled it close to him and held it against him before he felt tears start to fall. He always feels so lonely...he knows he needs to get over it because no one is always going to be by his side because everyone has their own lives...

After a while of silently crying into the pillow with Kokichi's scent he fell asleep with tears staining his face and his pillow.

-Lonely, lonely. Having a day again, not sure how to describe it. Thank you all so much for reading!!-

-ShuichiOuma010-