Kokichi? {Oumasai/Saiouma} {HIATUS}

-22-

A couple of hours later Kokichi finally got back from work. He slowly opened the door not wanting to disturb Shuichi if he was asleep or reading his book. The room was dark when he walked in. He took a couple of seconds to let his eyes adjust before he completely closed the door, letting the darkness consume the room once more.

He dropped his bag by the door before making his way over to the bed. Usually he would turn the light on, but knowing that Shuichi was already in bed fast asleep he didn't want to ruin his sleep. He knows that Shuichi needs his sleep...but he also knows how his sleep does when he doesn't have someone in the room with him. Shuichi was never given the care and support he needed from his parents, similar to Kokichi, and this makes him touch starved as well as having some post traumatic stress disorder with being alone all the time. Kokichi tries to be there for Shuichi as much as he can, but sometimes other things get in his way. This is just how life works, taking your time and remaining energy to put into work in school. Taking this away from being with the ones you love and care about.

There was a soft breeze from the fan Shuichi kept in his room. Even if it's not especially hot in the room, it helps him have some noise in the background to distract him from his thoughts. He also keeps a small radio in the room to play soft piano music when it's winter time or even when he just doesn't feel like having the fan on. There are also scents in the room from the scent pods Shuichi has to help keep it a calm atmosphere. It's mostly lavender scents to help him fall asleep at night and honestly, Kokichi likes his room better because of all of this. It's just calmer for the both of them.

The soft lamps Shuichi has that are more easy on the eyes for late night reading makes it easier for Kokichi to fall asleep next to him. Moments like those are the ones that both of them hold onto, the ones they know that always make them smile when they remember them. He slowly made his way to change into his pajamas before moving over to the bed. His bed was soft and warm because of Shuichi already being asleep all bundled in the covers. Kokichi almost didn't want to get into the bed with him because of how peaceful he looked...but he thought against it after seeing the silhouette of him clinging to his pillow. He knew that this meant he was feeling lonely again...feeling like he didn't have anyone there for him...and feeling the immense feeling of want for Kokichi to just be there by his side.

"Oh, Shu," Kokichi whispered as he slid into his side of the bed. He moved across the bed to hold Shuichi in his arms. Usually Shuichi would be the one to hold Kokichi, mainly because of the height difference, but there were moments that Shuichi needed to be held or in this instance, where he had fallen asleep first so Kokichi moved over to him to hold him before he fell asleep beside him.

"Mngh..." Shuichi moved closer to Kokichi with a groan. Kokichi smiled until he heard Shuichi sniffle as he moved Kokichi's face into his chest. Kokichi frowned a bit and moved his hands to rub his shoulders. Shuichi's shoulders are always tight and tense....mostly because of stress and worry that always follows him. Kokichi knows that this happens and tries to always get Shuichi to lower his shoulders so he doesn't get cramps or sore muscles the next day.

"It's alright now...I'm right here..." He said with a yawn. He was working his job more and more to try to save up the money to be able to buy a ring for Shuichi...because the year would soon be coming to a close and that meant that they would be adults soon. Kokichi didn't want to waste a moment to be with his beloved forever...so he was willing to work for him and his beloved to get enough money for the ring, and be able to get a stable income so they could both move in together somewhere.

Kokichi closed his eyes for a final time before finally submitting to the exhaustion of the day. Small snores left his mouth as Shuichi held him close to his chest. The night surrounded the two as the moment they were in became real. Dreams dancing around in their heads about the other, the happy times they have had together and how they have always been there for one another. Moments like these would never fade, because it was the both of them alone in that moment. Without the world calling for them or hurting them with the worry and fear it brings. It's just Kokichi and Shuichi, there to stay together through the night. Holding each other close and tight. Wanting nothing more than to have this never end, feeling a sense of safety that made everything seem alright, because they care about each other more than life.

The calming breeze as a reminder that this was calm. That even the breeze and the world outside could rest even if just for the night. It was a time when the obnoxiousness of the world outside would shut up. The time where the peaceful feeling let them be able to sleep in peace. No worry or fear keeping them awake, no stress or concern that was on their minds. They just slept through the darkness of the night. The shield it gives them from the light and stress that the day brings. The night is there for them, so they can be alone in this moment. Like a hug that makes you forget the reasons for your tears. Making all of the pain and fear leave you for a moment, while the world goes quiet.

The quiet is all that they need to relax. Getting the energy to take on the next day head on. Knowing that the other person next to them, the warmth and feeling of their breathing and breath showing them that they are there for each other. Like a silent promise that tells the world to leave them be...because they have each other and will work together to the end. This being because they know that whatever comes, they will always remember the good times and all the fun they had. This is what keeps them going even when the world makes it so hard to breathe. But at least they know they always have a secret partner to help them get some fresh air.

-I haven't been sleeping well...so I hope that soon I will be able to figure out how to get rid of this fear of sleeping to be able to get some rest...but as of now have this part of wholesome cuddles. Thank you all so much for reading!!-

-ShuichiOuma010-