How two men fell in love

~ Sasha i think i'm in love with a boy ~

{General POV}
it's been 2 weeks since the last time sebb and monty had seen each other. they would face time each other every night and day but it still didn't feel the same.

{Monty's POV}
i missed sebb so much. everything was so boring without him. i barely did anything because i felt so sad without him. i missed being in his arms and having him say my name and having him tell me everything is okay.

though these 2 weeks had got me thinking. and that one thing is that i am fully in love with sebb. i know i shouldn't have fallen in love with him as he's straight and he's my best friend and that's it. no matter how much it hurt to think about, it's the truth. the idea of being able to call him mine made my heart skip but then the sudden thought that he's straight and that would never happen made my heart break into tiny little pieces.

i was meeting up with one of my closest best friends today, sasha and i thought it would be a good idea to tell her everything. to tell her about sebb, about me, about how i feel about sebb. i know she can help, she's my best friend and we been friends since school so i know i can trust her. there was a part of me that was so so incredibly nervous. wait no scrap that. i am completely nervous. i have only just figured myself out and now i'm gonna tell someone else. the idea of that makes me so nervous. i haven't even thought about telling sebb, and how i go about that. i mean i know sebb is my best friend but i have also fallen in love with him. and the idea of that possibly ruining our friendship scares me more then anything in the world.

i got changed and texted sasha.

monty - i was wondering if you wanted to meet up and catch up at a cafe close to us if you like? x
and sent now just need to wait.
sasha - of course i can't wait! x

and with that i got everything ready to meet my best friend. it feel likes months since i met her so it felt nice being with out with her.

*time skip to the cafe*

we got to the cafe and i felt so nervous but excited at the same time. "hey monts what do you want to order?" sasha asked looking at me. "erm maybe a cupcake and ice coffee" i asked. as she went to order my phone pinged. it was sebb. i couldn't help but smile. sebb isn't even with me yet he stilled made me smile. i hadn't realised that sasha had now come back with our drinks and food. "ooo monty who's the lucky girl your texting" she asked. i was a little taken back "w..what?" was the only words i could say. "who's the lucky girl making you smile that much from your phone" she said again. shit. do i tell her now or wait? there was a 100 thoughts running through my head. how do i explain to my best friend that i'm in love with a boy. "monty you alright?" she asked now worried. "oh yeah yeah i am, erm so how is school" i said trying to change the subject hoping it'll work. "monty i know you too well to know there is something up" she said smiling at me. "there is erm nothing wrong" i said trying to sound as convincing as possible, but yet again, i was stuttering. "monty want to go to our little area after we eat and drink and we can talk?" she asked smiling at me. i didn't say anything i just nodded my head and went back to looking at the cupcake.

once we was done we headed to our little area. it wasn't anything special it was just a little oak tree that had a swing attached to it with a few stones to sit down on with the fresh green grass that always felt comforting to me. we sat down and i started taping my hand on my leg. "so monty what's wrong?" sasha asked. i have no clue how i'm going to tell her, and with that tears was now falling down my face. "hey hey monts come here" she said gesturing for me to come closer so he can hug me. "i'm.. i'm.." was the only words i could choke out. "it's okay take your time monty" "i'm..i'm.. sasha i'm in love with a boy" i finally said. tears was still forming down cheeks. "aww monty that's perfectly okay i support you" she said. i didn't know what to say i just hugged her tightly. i felt everything calm down. "sooo who's the lucky man that you have fallen for" "sebb, my best friend" i said looking down at the ground sad as i knew going out with him will never happen. "aww monty it's okay" she said trying to comfort me.

"sasha how do i tell him who i am, how do i tell him that i'm bi" i asked scared. "monty he's your best friend i'm sure he'll except you no matter what" she said smiling at me. she was right, me and sebb are so close i'm sure he'll be okay with it. "your right sasha he's my best friend of course he'll be okay with it" i said smiling. "they you go that's the spirt monts" she said smiling at me happily.

it was now time for me to go home. i hugged sasha goodbye and headed home. i still can't believe i told her everything and she was okay with it. im still completely nervous to tell sebb. i hate hiding things from him, and the fact i have to hide my feelings around him, scared me to most. i just don't want to lose him and the idea of losing him over some little feelings i have.

monty - hey sebby you okay to facetime me?
sebb - of course monts x

and with that i set up my laptop to facetime sebb. "hey monts i've missed you" sebb said smiling at me. "i've missed you too sebby, i have a question for you" i said hoping he would be okay with it. "oh course, what is it?" he said confused. "can i come over to yours tomorrow?" i asked kinda nervous. "monty you know you don't have to ask that, you can always comes to mine, remember" he said letting out a little chuckle and a smile. "i know i know just making sure" i said chuckling myself.

{sebb's POV}
for some reason i had the instinct that monty was nervous, i don't know why or what it was but the way he was acting, he would nervously laugh now and again and would tuck his hands in this hoodie sleeves. i would why he was so nervous? i'm sure it's nothing bad and he's just excited for tomorrow.speaking of tomorrow i'm so excited that i get to see him again, i can't even lie, i've missed him a lot, more then i ever have with any of my other friends. there was something about him, something that made me  feel so special, so much more happier then ever. i can't wait to hug him again and see his smile again, and to be able to talk about random things and still laugh about it.

we walked for a couple more hours until we both fell asleep face timing each other, i fell asleep thinking about all the fun things i can do tomorrow with monty.

hey! i'm sorry it's took longer then i thought to get a new chapter out but i hope you like it anyway <3

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