PUISSANCE • 𝔄 𝔏𝔞𝔪𝔢𝔩𝔬 𝔅𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔖𝔱𝔬𝔯𝔶 • (discontinued)

Different Now

August 16th

Melo

It's been almost two weeks since me and Xia officially put the breaks on our relationship. To her, we were still technically together but in reality, we were basically broken up. We haven't really been hanging out, we don't text as much as we used to. It's like things got awkward between us and it's really been getting me tight. This shit sucks, I be wanting to call her, tell her to come over so I could kiss all over her and lay in bed all day. I wanna listen to her talk, see her smile. She really made me soft as fuck and I kinda don't like it. I wonder how she's really taking everything.

On the brighter side of things I got to spend some time alone with my thoughts and feelings and I guess do that "healing" shit Xia was talking about. I have to remember that Xia isn't Ashley and stop projecting my fears of the past onto her. I really trust this girl with my life and I know I can trust her in our relationship. K and Jess also talked with me and everything is smooth between us. I've been practicing more and working out with my brothers to put on some pounds. Also made a random decision to ditch the waves and grow out some curls. One night while I was laying in bed I was thinking about one day when me and Xia were looking at old pictures of me back when I had the curly fro. She said she "would like to see my hair kinda like that now, just more mature". Just a lot of bettering myself in all aspects of my life. I just wish Xia was by my side cheering me on 24/7.

I was laying in bed holding my phone up in the air above my face and scrolling through social media hoping ion drop the thing on it. Then I gotta text from Eli.

Eli🗣 : Ayo

Melo: wasgood famlee

Eli🗣 : Tryna come w us to the mall

Melo: who's "us"

Eli🗣: uhh me, K, Jess, Ant, Don, O.
Eli🗣: oh and Xia

I already knew that was coming. I don't know if I'm prepared to see her today and not be able to be "couple-y". How the fuck am I supposed to act around her now? This whole break thing made shit weird but only for me I guess. Xia's been living her life pretty normal from what I can tell. She's been posting all over snap, instagram. Going new places everyday, I feel like she's doing better without me.

I also realized while we were apart, I truly didn't appreciate her the way I wanted to. We were were always together doing basic shit but I never really took her out on dates or did anything special just to surprise her. It was like a baby relationship. Maybe she realized that she's better off and this "break" is really her easy way of breaking shit off with me..

Eli🗣: sooo you coming?
Eli🗣: I know you and Xia are still on that break..

I forgot to respond to Eli.

Melo: yeah imma come through

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"Sooo being around her isn't gonna be weird for you?" Eli asked as we walked through the mall. Everyone else was already here, we were meeting them at the food court.

"Nah" I shook my head looking at my feet then up at Eli. "We're cool."

"Mhmmm, I know you miss her. You're basically whipped." He laughed.

"Yeah yeah..."

We made it to the food court and found the others sitting at a table. Once me and Eli got closer, O was the first one to notice us and stood up from the table.