I'm A Mess (Minsung) Detective x Serial Killer (COMPLETED)

Chapter 20

March 14, 2020
10:00 pm

Jisung's P.O.V.

I stay silent while Minho drives to the boba shop, curled up in a ball in my seat as warm tears cascade down my cheeks. If that man had gone any farther, I wouldn't have been able to even move like a normal human being anymore. I'd feel like a robot.

My skin burns in places it shouldn't be burning, and I can still feel their hands on me, touching me in places I don't want them to touch. I completely ignore the bulge in my jeans, telling myself I shouldn't be sensitive when I just got sexually assaulted. That would be wrong and disgusting of me. Minho pulls into the parking lot of the boba shop and parks, looking at me.

"What flavor do you want, Sungie?" He speaks very quiet and very soft, and looks at me as if I'm fragile like glass and could break any second.

"Passion fruit...with lychee flavored jellies instead of boba please..." I mumble with a sniffle. Minho nods and kisses my forehead before heading inside the shop. I wait silently for him and text Felix after he asked me how I was feeling.

Honestly, I don't know how I'm feeling....I feel disgusting, and gross and exactly what that man called me....a slut. And I feel ashamed. Minho comes back to the car while I'm in the middle of another mental breakdown, carrying two cups of boba. He opens the door and hands me my drink.

"Here you are baby, passion fruit with lychee jellies just like you asked." I take the cup and mumble a thank you before he gets in. We sit in silence and drink our teas, scrolling endlessly through our phones. I've barely taken any sips from my bubble tea and Minho seems to take notice.

"Baby...why haven't you been drinking your tea?" He grabs my hand and caresses it.

"Not thirsty..." I murmur, putting my phone down.

"Jisung...do you want to talk about it?" He asks carefully. I nod slowly and he faces me.

"I feel dirty, Minho," I start quietly, "I feel dirty and disgusting and violated and every gross emotion I could possibly feel." Tears form in my eyes as I explain to him. "They held me down and he touched me in a place only your hands should ever be....only your hands should ever enter that place but no, they had to take even that liberty from me...they had to make me feel like I don't belong here anymore." I sob uncontrollably, crawling into Minho's lap where I feel safe. I straddle him before sitting down in between his legs, burying my face in his chest.

"Shhhh, it'll be okay again Sungie....I promise someday it will be okay again." He strokes my hair and tries to calm me down. "How can I help Sungie? Is there anything I can do?" He speaks again and I sit up, straddling him again.

"Make me not feel the pain anymore, Minho...take the pain away....I can still feel their hands on me, their hands roaming all over my skin and touching me in different places....can you replace their hands with yours? Can you make me feel good and replace their touches? Please Minho, please..." I plead, heavy streams of tears falling down my cheeks.

"Are you sure, angel?" Minho asks, searching my eyes for certainty. I nod and sniffle. "Okay...." He replies, sounding unsure before hesitantly attaching his hand to my bulge. I moan breathily and move against him, begging for more friction as I slam my lips on his.

He kisses me back fully, slipping his tongue in my mouth and I moan into the kiss. He pulls away for a minute and stares at me. "Jisung, are you sure you want this?" He moves his hand from my bulge to my thigh, causing me to whine from lack of contact.

"Yes, of course I fucking do." I respond before kissing him roughly, moving against him hard causing him to release groans as I move my hands to run through his hair. "Minho," I moan and he looks at me, "touch me please." He slips his warm hand into my boxers and strokes me slowly.

I shutter and moan onto his lips, closing my eyes in ecstasy. "Just like that...shit," I thrust into his hand, begging for more. I'm about to release when suddenly his hand feels like theirs...his touch feels like theirs and I back away from him, my eyes clouded with fear as I adjust my pants.

"Baby, what happened? I thought you wanted me?" Minho lightly caresses my sides. I shake my head quickly, moving back to my seat.

"N-Not anymore...not r-right now...I can't do this right now..." The last sentence sounds more like a whisper as I turn away from him and face the window, curling my body back into a ball. "Just drive to the park please..." I speak again. Minho nods and drives to the nearest park, occasionally looking over at me as if to see if I'm okay.

He parks in the lot and I immediately get out, taking my cup of bubble tea with me. He gets out and follows me, intertwining our hands as we walk side by side on the sidewalk. He stays silent while I drink my tea, admiring the nighttime sky.

"Sungie look up there...look at all the stars." Minho points above me. I look up and marvel at how many stars are out tonight.

"Woah...that's a lot of stars, Minnie." I smile. He smiles at me before looking up again.

"Mhm and I will love you until the last star blinks out, which is a very very long time."

"Like eternity?"

"Like eternity." He kisses my cheek as we continue walking. I start shivering again as the night air draws colder and my boyfriend seems to notice.

"Are you still cold, Jisung? Even with my hoodie and jacket on?" I nod at what he says. "This should help you feel warmer." Minho replies before slipping our hands into the pocket of the jacket I'm wearing and pecking my lips.

"Thank you, Minnie," I smile, "that helped me feel a lot warmer."

"You're welcome baby, now let's enjoy the rest of our night." He smiles back and we continue walking, gazing at the stars occasionally. We finish our bubble teas and throw the cups away before Minho finds a dry spot in the grass to lay down. We lay down next to each other and admire the stars, finding peace and bliss within being with each other.

"Sungie?"

"Hm?"

"Do you have any plans for the future?"

"The future?" I look over at him and he nods.

"Yeah, like what you wanna do...who you wanna be. Anything." I stare at the stars for a minute before speaking again.

"I guess so....I want to graduate college and hopefully find a better job...get married to the love of my life...adopt a baby boy together..." I trail off and see Minho blush in the corner of my eye.

"A baby boy?" He asks.

"Mhm...a baby boy, one of our own...a tiny human we can coddle and hold and love forever." I say with a smile.

"That sounds wonderful, Jisung." He kisses my cheek. We spend a few more minutes looking at the sky before going back to the car. "This has been an eventful day, what do you say we go back to the apartment and pack so we can go to Jeju tomorrow?" Minho asks as we drive back home. I nod excitedly and he chuckles in reply. "Alright then, let's go home and pack."

We get home soon enough, and I unlock the door and run inside quickly while my boyfriend chuckles behind me. I quickly change into pajama pants and one of Minho's tshirts before dragging my suitcase out of the closet and starting to pack it.

I bring piles of the things I need onto my bed and begin organizing them into sections before I feel a pair of arms wrap around my torso. "Hi Minho," I chirp, turning to kiss his cheek.

"Hey baby, do you need any help?" He asks, watching me pack.

"I think I'm okay but thank you for the offer." I smile and continue packing. "Are we sleeping in your bed or my bed tonight?" I ask, turning to him.

"Let's do mine tonight, you can bring your suitcase in there when you're done." Minho smiles and pecks my lips before walking out of the room. I finish packing and roll my suitcase into his room, seeing my boyfriend already cozied up in bed.

"Come join me, sweetheart." He says and opens up the covers for me. I climb into bed next to him and settle into his arms, feeling his breath fan against the back of my neck. I slowly match his breathing pace and soon enough I am peacefully drifting off to sleep in his arms.