I'm A Mess (Minsung) Detective x Serial Killer (COMPLETED)

Chapter 11

March 8, 2020
7:00 pm

Jisung's P.O.V

I hurry home, my heart racing one hundred miles a minute as I walk down the dark sidewalks, trying to process what just happened. Did Minho really just confess to me? Am I hallucinating? Does he really feel the same way about me? Or am I just paranoid? Fuck it Han Jisung, stop talking to yourself. I curse at my own thoughts as I walk breathlessly through the front door, slamming it shut and leaning against it.

"Woah you're back early...why do you look so nervous? What happened?" Hyunjin questions as he comes in from the kitchen. 

"I...uh...I...M-Minho...uhhh.." I stutter.

"Boy, just get it out already." He rolls his eyes.

"Minho confessed to me." I blurt out.

"Okay, and? Did you tell him you like him back?" I shake my head. Hyunjin puts his hands on his hips.

"Han Jisung, what did you do?"

"I umm...I kinda...I kinda just said I will bring my boxes into the apartment next week and left..."

"You WHAT?! This boy just told you that you could MOVE IN with him and then CONFESSED to you, and you LEAVE the house without saying ANYTHING?! I swear to GOD I'm gonna beat your ASS." Hyunjin yells dramatically.

"I'm sorry hyung, I...I chickened out...you know how I feel about him and falling in love with him, I can't risk it because I don't want him to get hurt..." I reply.

"But you like him back, yes?" I nod.

"THEN JUST FUCKING TELL HIM THAT!"

"I can't..."

"And why not?"

"Because I'm trying to protect him Hyunjin! You know how fucking depressing it is to be around me, you know firsthand how broken I am and yet you refuse to stop being friends with me! I've been lonely since the beginning, why can't it just go back to the way it was?! Life was much more simple when I was lonely and getting abused every day of my fucking miserable life!" I fire back angrily.

I trudge to the couch and plop myself on it, tears threatening to spill. Hyunjin sighs and sits next to me, putting my head in his lap and stroking my hair.

"Is that all that happened?" He asks calmly.

"No." I say briefly.

"What else is bothering you then?" He replies. I sigh.

"Minho has the hanahaki disease...I had no idea until tonight when we were eating and he suddenly started coughing out of nowhere. He went to his kitchen sink and threw up flower petals."

"Oh goodness...when did he get that?" Hyunjin asks as he rubs my thigh comfortingly.

"Two years ago...he said it started the same night my dad died..."

"You mean the same night you murdered your dad, correct?"

"Yes, hyung..." I trail off. And that's when Jisung began retracing his steps. He started flipping through images in his head of the night he killed his father. He paused when he remembered that at one point, him and Minho made eye contact.

"Hyunjin..." I gasp as I remember.

"Hm?" He hums back.

"Minho was there that night...the night I killed my dad...he was there at the crime scene, investigating it...he was assigned to that case..." He nods.

"And?"

"We made eye contact that night...I remember fake crying as best I could and then I turned my head and saw him staring at me...and...and I felt a connection between us...a taut one, like...like a soulmate string almost..." Hyunjin looks down at me.

"So your point is?"

"My point is...that connection...even if it was just for a split second, that connection manifested itself between us..."

"And your conclusion is?"

"My conclusion...my conclusion is," I gasp as I realize, "Hyunjin...I gave Minho the hanahaki disease...it was me all along." He nods before answering.

"And are you going to tell him?" I shake my head.

"Not about the hanahaki...for some reason I don't think he should know that...but I'll confess to him about my feelings...just not yet." I say. He looks at me confused.

"You're not going to confess tonight?"

"No...I don't know how to, Jinnie...and even if I did, I don't know what would happen."

"Happen to what? He already told you he likes you." Hyunjin questions.

"Yes, but...what if the hanahaki doesn't go away? What if I'm not the one who gave it to him? What if I'm completely wrong about this entire thing?" I ask him.

Hyunjin shakes his head. "You won't be...and if his hanahaki doesn't go away, just stay with him. It's clear that he likes you and really wants to be with you, Sungie. Take a chance on him." I nod in reply, staring at the ceiling before getting up from his lap.

"Where are you going?" He asks.

"To bed...this entire situation gives me a headache." I reply for shutting myself in my room. I prepare myself for bed before checking my phone, realizing that I have three texts and two missed calls from Minho. I shrug and ultimately decide to ignore him until I can figure all of this out.