Fairy Tail: An Aqaurius Quest

First Kiss?

"Where to next?" Natsu asked shifting the weight of his pack for comfort.

"Ancient ruins? There's a village town there that we can rest at. I figure we will loop all the way around Fiore and end in Magnolia before moving on. It's weird that Happy isn't here," I said staring at the ground.

"Yeah, it's weird that a piece of our family is missing," he says staring ahead.

Our family?

It's brings me back to the first time he said it. Clutching me closely against him and Happy too.

"We got lots of love we're like a family."

Maybe it's not him who's not being direct enough about his feelings. Maybe it's always been me. After all, he was the one who tried to kiss me, tell me he loved me, called us a family and said we were always going to be together forever. Maybe Natsu is just being direct in his own way.

While he's never been upfront and direct with saying the three words, he hasn't necessarily needed to. Isn't saying we are a family and are always going to be together forever direct enough? How many times have I woken up in my own bed with his scarf in my face?

Our walk on the cobblestone path is silent but comfortable. I got so lost in my own thoughts that I tripped over one of the unleveled bricks in my path.

Before I could bite the ground a second time in a twenty four hour period, Natsu has caught me in his arms...and his lips.

In my stumble, I lost footing and he caught me and somehow, my lips are firmly against his.

Eyes wide open, I look at his closed eyelids. He doesn't move and I don't dare break it. I shift my weight to stand upright and he pulls me tighter against him. We are kissing. My eyelids flutter shut too and I remain still in the moment.

All of that angst and tension, and now here I am, in his arms kissing him. And it's by total accident.

Our first kiss was accidental. Therefore it means nothing because it wasn't intended. I can't help it, I shove him hard off of me and he's fallen on the ground.

"Hey! What was that for!" He screams rubbing his head.

I don't say anything. Blood rushes to my cheeks and I back away from him. I kissed him. No. He kissed me? In any case his lips were definitely on mine and it was definitely a kiss. I'm so mad. That idiot! My emotions are warring internally and I don't know what to do or say. If I don't say something soon, and the right thing, things could change.

"Natsu you idiot!" I scold covering my lips. My lips that are still warm from the heat that his gave off.

"Lucy, don't be mad! It was just a stupid kiss! It was an accident," he says with an edge of annoyance. As if I'm being the childish one.

Just a stupid kiss

How could he say that? It meant nothing? Of course it didn't. He didn't even mean to do it, it was just a byproduct of a complete accident. I can't even look at him. Because if he knew the effect he had on me, I don't know if I could handle a full on rejection. At least not from him.

The sun has completely gone down and we are still walking. Natsu's fire illuminates the area just enough for us to see five feet in front of us. I'm sure we are close to the desolate village. My stomach grumbles and I'm sure his is too.

I physically cannot make myself talk to him. Because the second he starts talking, it's just a matter of time before I have a break down and I can't have a break down about Natsu in front of Natsu.

Even though it was an accident, I can't help how I feel about it. It just makes me want another kiss. And another. I just want him all to myself.

I know him, I know he's already forgotten about it and distanced himself completely from it.

And if he breaks the silence, it'll just affirm that. That he's not obsessing over it like I am. That he doesn't care and we will always just be this. Stuck. Stuck on the edge of falling into something deeper.

Hoping Natsu doesn't say anything is useless and inevitable.

"Lucy are we almost there? I'm hungry," he whines.