Madness (hunhanff)

Chapter 59

Four days pass, slowly and painfully.

I don't think me and Sehun can even be in the same room together for less than a minute before getting into some stupid arguement and I hate it.

What happened between us? Was it something I did? I can't stand not being able to talk to him like I used to and it hurts, physically hurts.

My chest is constantly hurting and I can't seem to control my emotions around him anymore. I feel like everything he says drives a knife through my chest and it gets deeper and deeper every time we talk.

He doesn't even seem to care about me anymore, he won't talk to me about anything and when we do talk he insults me worse than the last time.

The things he says to me hurt worse than anything I have ever felt before, to the point where I left the room with hot tears pouring down my face. If I thought things couldn't have gotten worse, I ran into Juliet. I know everyone knows something is up between me and Sehun becuase no one has dared to talk to me or whine about what we were doing in any class.

I am wreck.

I haven't left my office today and I heard Hanna knock on my door offering me food but I pretty much yelled at her to leave me the fuck alone.

I haven't been able to get myself out of my pissy side either. Ever since last night I have been fuming, my skin burned off faster than it ever has without me making it. I busted my knuckles open when I punched the damn wall trying to control my anger but it just made me more mad.

"Luhan-" I hear from outside my door.

"What do you want, Sehun?" I growl as I rest my head in my hands on my desk.

"We need to talk."

"About what? All you tell me about is how fucked up I am! Just leave me alone."

"Open the door." He says banging on it.

I stand up and swing the door open, banging it into the wall leaving a hole where the door knob went through.

"What do you want?"

"Why are you locking youself up here? You are acting like-"

"Like a baby? I'm sick of this, Sehun. I'm sick of fuckin' fighting with you! I'm sick of you calling me every fucking name you can think of! I'm sick of it!"

"I'm sick of being here. I didn't fucking ask for you to take me here! I didn't even know that we were going to come to this fucking house and that I would have to spent the rest of my life here with you!" He shouts back at me, breaking every last piece of me that I was holding onto so tightly.

"Fine." I growl, unable to think of anything else to do, "then fucking forget about it!" I say as I look away and he's gone.

I fall onto my knees and put my face into my hands, I have no tears left in my body. I ran out two days ago.

I weakly pull myself off the ground and walk to my desk to sit down, I put my elbows on the desk and rest my head in my hands.

He's gone.

I pull harshly one the roots of my hair while I bite my lip not caring about the disgusting metal taste that begins to cover my tongue.

"Fuck!" I scream at the top of my lungs before a single tear runs down my cheek, it's the last tear I have in my body.

"L-luhan?" A voice stutters from the door way.

"What?" I yell as I look up to see Juliet shaking in the doorway.

"W-where's Sehun?"

"He's gone-"

"When is he coming back?"

"He isn't-" I can't stay here either, I need to just leave.

"What? Why?"

"Why are you so fucking nosy! Can't you just stay out of my fucking business for once?He's fucking gone and he isn't coming back. Do you want to laugh at me? Do you want to rub it in my face that the only thing I love is gone?" I shout at her.

"N-no, Luhan-"

"Move." I growl as I push past her.

"Where are you going?"

"I'm leaving, tell the staff they can leave too. I'm not coming back." I say before leaving as well.