The Hooded Beauty

Can't Lose You

I'm taken back and hesitant to go with him because for years he has been my enemy at school, he publicly hated me, which made everyone hate me. I trust him near enough 100% but there's still that ounce of doubt and insecurities that are saying it's a trap.

Jace has never given a girl a ride to school, he knows this is a big statement. He looks as chill as possible but millions of thoughts are plaguing my mind, I push them all aside and nod at Jace as we begin walking out, we say bye to Asher and Alejandro.

"Are we good?" He asks me and I just carry on walking and don't even look up at him. You have the audacity to ask me that after acting so bizarre yesterday?
"I should be asking you that" I sigh as I open the door to climb in, he'd usually open the door for me but I purposely got there before him. He jogs over to his side and climbs in. I can already feel the tension between us and I know this isn't good tension. I'm fed up of the silence, I'm looking at him but he's just looking infront of him.

"Are you going to explain?" I say with a mild bitchy tone. You aren't pulling this shit on me, I'm not dealing with it. I don't have the time or the energy to entertain this. He looks me dead in the eyes with an intense glare filled with mixed emotions. It instantly fills me with an overwhelming anxiety that puts a lump in my throat.

"I can't tell you much because your dad won't let me, he wants it to be hush hush until the mandatory meeting tonight. It's about your safety because I think you're in danger again" he trails off, his tone becoming angrier every word he spits out, he has to stare infront of him again. He grabs the steering wheel.

"Kady, I can't lose you again" he whispers gripping tighter onto the wheel, his knuckles turn white and his face flushes red due to the sudden anger. I've never seen him this angry before, it doesn't scare me, it worries me. I want to help him so I lean over and place one hand over his and the other cups his cheek. I don't know what or who this danger is, it might be that guy from Target. I don't focus on that right now, I focus on Jace, I need to calm him down.

I climb out of the car and run over to his side, I sling the door open and leap onto his lap straddling him, I wrap my arms around him. It takes his a few seconds but then he wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me in tight. We sit like this for a few minutes, I successfully calm him down, I cup his face with both hands and look into his eyes.
"You aren't going to lose me" I state and kiss him, he kisses me back and tries to deepen it but I pull back, he leans his head onto my chest, I look over at the time.

"We need to go"
"I want to stay like this"
"Jace, we need to go hun"
"Ugh fine" he groans and I climb off him and awkwardly hop over the centre console in the least attractive way possible, we drive off.

I have major anxiety about going to school with him, he grips onto my thigh while he drives, like he always does and I hold onto his hand. We don't talk until we pull up to park infront of the school. It is 5 minutes until class starts, the car park is filling up by the seconds, people are everywhere. I don't know if this is the perfect time to pull this stunt or the worst time, I'm swaying more towards the latter. I can see everyone but everyone can't see me and I'd rather it stay that way. What I'd do for a hoodie right now.

My door opens and Jace is stood there with his hand out, I didn't even realise he had got out of the car because I was that deep into my thoughts. I panic because I realise I have to get out of the car now, I take his hand and climb out of his car. I straighten my dress out and fiddle with my ponytail.

"You look stunning, stop fidgeting" he sighs dramatically with a smile, I look up at him after realising I was being an obvious fusser, it's just something I do because of my anxiety. I grab my bag and close the door, he locks the car and then I look towards the school.

I instantly regret looking up because now I know that everyone. Is. Staring. My worst nightmare is now my reality. A bottled up anxiety attack runs through my body like a train. He notices it and holds my hand, pulling me along as he walks towards the school. I try not to look at everyone we pass but I can't help it, I can feel their glares in my soul, it's intense and overwhelming at the very least, I follow him sheepishly.

But then I realise how much of an insecure mess I look to the crowd. Nah, this isn't me, I've left that Kady in the past. I straighten my posture, catch up to Jace's pace and hold my head high. I walk with a pep in my step. Like the boss bitch I am, I look good today.

I don't care if you stare at me.