My List of Mistakes

So You've Never

Elliot held him close and danced the night away, the two of them smiling and laughing. "God this night is amazing!" Elliot cheered.

Nathan nodded and giggled, burying his face. "My father has parties like this almost every weekend. You're welcome to them all..."

Elliot smiled and nodded. "I'll be there."

"Good." The boy smiled and pulled away to look over the balcony, leaving Elliot to wrap his arms around his hips and look with him.

"Have you ever thought about falling from this roof?"

"Excuse me?"

"You know. Falling. I mean it's at least sixty stories-

"Sixty-three." Nathan interrupted.

"Okay.. Sixty-three stories... Have you ever thought about what falling off would be like?"

Nathan turned in his arms. "No... That's not the kind of thing I think about." He glanced over Elliot's face. "Why.... Is that something you think about?"

Elliot shrugged, looking past him. "I think about how fast it would be over. I wonder if it would hurt when I hit the ground. I wonder how long I'd be falling for, or if I'd regret my choice half way down..."

"Elliot...." He whispered and grabbed his chin, forcing their eyes to meet. "Have you ever...."

His eyes widened slightly but he soon looked away again.

"Oh god..." Nathan held his hands. "I never... No one ever knew."

"There are a lot of things people don't know about me.... Even if they knew they wouldn't change.

Nate shook his head. "They'll never touch you again. I promise I will not let them touch you."

"You make a lot of promises."

"Yeah. And I'm going to keep them all. I promise I will never let them touch you. I promise you're special. I promise you that in yours one hundered percent."

Elliot nodded and looked down at him. He looked at him, seeing the truth in his face and his expression. He could see that Nathan meant it. There was something he wanted to say but it was far too soon and he wouldn't ruin this. "I... I..."

"You?"

"I need you."

"I need you too Elliot."
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The Gala was long and extravagant. After their little escape on the deck, Elliot and Nathan made their way back inside, snacking and laughing.

"Dude macaroons.. So you guys are the ones that ordered all the macaroons from my mom!"

Nathan smiled. "Yeah. We usually do cupcakes but it's a nice change. Your mother is a wonderful baker."

"Why thank you." Eve's voice flooded from behind them, smiling as they turned to her. "Secret family recipes..."

Nathan laughed and turned to smile at her.

"You two look thick as Thieves! You behaving?"

Elliot smirked and grabbed his ass, causing Nathan to squeak and laugh. "I guess you could say that." He grumbled and smacked his boyfriend's hands.

Elliot smirked and kissed his ear. "You wouldn't be if these people weren't around." The boy muttered and Nathan felt his pants get tight.

Eve rolled her eyes and looked around. "Be careful you two... People aren't always nice as they seem,"

The boys nodded and Elliot smiled at his mother. "Can I stay with Nathan tonight?"

She raised a brow but nodded. "Yes you can... No fooling around though... "

Nathan blushed and Elliot nodded. "Course not mom. Never in a million years."

Nathan elbowed him and waved goodbye as Eve left.

The party came to an end and Nathan took Elliot's hands, running with him to his bedroom. "This place is huge! You live here!?"

"Yeah.. Just me and my father.. And of course our staff..."

"Oh yes. Of course." He teased, closing the door behind them. "So baby... What do you wanna do?" He smirked.

Nathan turned and grabbed him by his tie. "I think you know."

Pulling him along, Nathan smirked mischievously and fell back against the bed.

Elliot braced himself, his arms landing on either side of the other's head while he ducked down to kiss his neck, the both of them working out of their shirts.

Elliot was shaking with a nervous excitement, ready to give his all to satisfy Nathan. Humming, he trailed kisses down Nathan's bare chest.

Nathan groaned, his back arching up as he gasped and started at his pants. "Did you bring anything?"

"Uh.. Bring something?No sorry.. You have anything?" Elliot mumbled, kissing behind his ear.

"No condoms? Lube?"

Elliot shook his head, pulling back. "I didn't know we... Umm.. I've never.."

Nathan propped up on his elbows. "You've never had sex before?" He said in shock and disbelief.

The taller teen grew bright red and shook his head. "I've never been in a relationship before this..."

"Oh.... Elliot, this isn't the way- this isn't how you should give it up." He sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "It should be special... Better than this. Better than my bedroom where we have to be quiet and worry about someone coming in." Nate bit his lip.

Elliot sank back and sat on the bed, looking down at his hands. "Sorry I let you down."

"What? No! Elliot you didn't let me down. I'll wait as long as we have to. I want you to lose your virginity the right way. When you and me can just let go and be as loud and crazy as we want." He cracked a smile. "I want your first time to be what mine wasn't."

"What was your first time like?" He asked, laying down beside him.

"Mine?" Nathan laughed and laid out, kicking his shoes off. "Which time? The first time I've ever had sex in general was with Felicity last year at a party. The first with a man was in the back seat of my dad's limo with his driver." He sighed and shrugged. "Felicity was just strange.. Like it didn't feel right... Marco on the other hand, it was just pure fun. I'd never been with a guy before and he was smooth as all hell. It was late and he'd picked me up from some party. I was a little drunk and he was too cute. We ended up in the back before I knew it....." He laughed at the memory.

"Did it hurt?"

"Fuck yes. For me it did. I mean... God it hurts the first time but you'll be fine." He punched Elliot's arm and kissed his chin. "You'll be amazing baby. I know you will."

Elliot laughed and nodded. "We hope. I just don't want to break you."

"You won't."

"You sure?"

Nathan punched his arm. "Unless your dong is twice the size of my ass you'll be fine." He chuckled again and kissed him. "Don't be nervous. You're gonna be great.. Now shut up so we can cuddle."

With a roll of his eyes, Elliot wrapped his arms around Nathan and closed his eyes, falling asleep in their embrace.