Life, Love and Tragedy

Chapter 38

Why has this happened?!
AN: there are parts of this chapter that some people may find upsetting.

Jamie's pov...
How can't she remember? The nurse said that she hit her head and it caused some memory loss. How can't she remember our baby though? Our gorgeous little baby boy.
Hannah left. Leaving me alone with her. I went over to her and held her hand.
She was crying.
My heart broke even more.
J- Erin?
E- Jamie I remember. It's ok. It was just the shock of waking up.
She was lying, I could tell. She was never a good liar.
J- Erin. You don't have to lie to me. It's ok, we will fix it. It will be ok.
E- I never could lie to you, you ginger dummy.
She laughed but cried at the same time. I did the same.
Truth is, I don't know how we will fix it. How will it be ok??
Racheals pov...
They have been in there for a while. I wonder what's going on.
Hannah came out, she was crying.
We all stood up.
S- Wh--what's happened?
H- she's awake.
Everyone took a big sigh. She was awake.
R- why are you crying? What haven't you told us?
H- she.. She doesn't
Hannah burst out in tears.
H- she doesn't remember the baby.
J- what?
Jake went over to Hannah and hugged her. She was crying into his shoulder.
R- what do you mean?
H- she doesn't remember having the baby. She can't remember him. She knows me and Jamie and all of you probably and the other three kids but she can't remember anything about the new baby.
Sian and I hugged. I thought she would be ok. I kept going back and forth, will she make it? She'll be ok. No she won't. She will she's erin. She'll be fine. What is she's not?
It turns out it's a bit of both.
My phone bleeped. It was Dana.
D- hey babe, hope everyone's ok. All my love to you. Maybe we can have a movie night when you get home Ye? Xx
He always knew just want I needed.
R- I'll talk to you later babe x
I'm so glad we are back together and he come to Liverpool. He's amazing stopping the tour for me.
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Danas pov...
How can I tell her I have to go back to America. Tomorrow?!
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Erins pov...
Nurse- Erin your strong enough to see your baby now. Would you like to?

I looked at Jamie who was looking at me hopefully but he was trying not to put pressure on me. Maybe when I hold him I might feel different.
E- yes please.
Jamie jumped up in excitement and kisses me on the forehead.
J- I can wait for you to see him, he's gorgeous. He has your mums eyes.
I smiled weakly.
I hope holding him brings back something.
The nurse walked in holding a baby. I could see little tuffs of ginger.
E- at least we know it's yours then Jamie
Jamie and the nurse laughed.
The nurse handed me the baby.
I looked at it. He looked back at me, a little hand came out of the blanket he was wrapped in and I put my finger to it, his tiny little fingers wrapped around it. When this happened with Iris and the twins, love rose up through my whole body but this time I didn't feel anything. It scared me. I quickly have Jamie the baby.
J- what's the matter?
Tears jerked down my face.
E- I'm sorry. I can't do it. I don't remember being pregnant, I don't remember having him. I don't remember anything about him. I can't pretend I do. He doesn't feel like my baby.
Jamie was shocked at me. Does he hate me? Why did this happen? I can't cope with this!
J- ok.
Jamie walked out holding the baby. It was obvious he was crying.
I put my head in my hands and began to sob.
Why has this happened?!...