He's into Him (against the universe #1)

chapter 31

Pag bukas ko Ng mga mata ko, sinag na nag mumula sa ilaw Ang bumungad sakin.

"Thanks God you're awake"

I look at the one who speak and saw cholo besides me, holding my hands.

"Cholo" mahinang usal ko sakanya
Naramdaman ko Naman Ang sakit na nag mumula sa tiyan ko.

It still hurt.

"I'm sorry" Saad ni cholo, saka biglang yumakap sakin.

"I'm really sorry for this Rhys. If I only knew that this will happen to you, sana- Sana ay Hindi ko nalang ginawa Yun. I'm sorry, I'm really really sorry" Saad nito habang lumuluha.

"Hey? It's okay. Hindi Naman malalim Yung pag kaka saksak sakin, see? I'm still alive" Saad ko sakanya.

"What if Hindi kaagad Nakita na nasaksak ka?! What if sobrang dami Ng dugo na nawala sayo?! What if? What if Hindi mo nakayanan? I'm telling you this Rhys, mababaliw ako! Hindi ko kakayanin pag nawala ka"

Paano nga kaya Kung ganon? Pano Kung Hindi ko nga kaya talaga nakayanan?

"Then... I'll make sure na makaka survive ako, I need to live, kailangan Kong mabuhay... Kasi Alam ko na... Hindi kakayanin Nung taong iiwan ko Ang mawala ako sa tabi nya"  Saad ko Sabay tingin sa mata nya.

"Good thing, you think like that, cause I really can't make it, if God took you to Early to me"

He said and kiss my forehead.

Ako din Naman Hindi ko kakayanin kapag nawala sya sakin, kaya nga sobrang kaba Ang naramdaman ko Ng Makita Syang walang Malay sa condo.

"Nandito kanina sila Kira, they we're so worried about you" Saad nito.

"Really? Where are they then?" Tanong ko Naman sakanya.

Sumilay Naman sa mukha nya Ang isang malungkot na ngiti.

"The thing is, our friends are mad at me, they can't stand in one room with me"  Saad nito na Syang ikinakunot Ng noo ko.

"Galit? Bakit Naman sila magagaling sayo?"

"Look Rhys, you saw me and maurize kissing, well I didn't kiss her but still you saw it. Then my brother put you in jail, then last look?! You are here in the hospital because you got stab, because of my stupidity, that's why I understand them if they are mad at me"

"But it's not your fault"

"Rhys, it is! It is my fault! Can't you see it?! If I didn't do that kind of thing to myself, maybe you're not here! If I just didn't go in our gathering, maybe... Maybe we're still okay now, Sana hindi nangyari to sayo!"

Naupo Naman ako saka tumingin sakanya.

I hold his face and look him in the eyes.

"It's not your fault! Basta Yan Lang tatandaan mo, it's not your fucking fault! Don't blame yourself ever again!"

"But-"

Inilapit ko Naman Ang isang daliri ko sa kanyang labi Ng tangka Syang mag sasalita.

"No more buts cholo. Let's forget this mess, let's pretend that nothing happened"

"How can I forg-"

"CHOLO!"

"FINE! I'LL TRY TO FORGET IT"

umirap Lang Naman sakanya.

"Anong Sabi Ng doctor? Kelan daw ako pwedeng lumabas?" Tanong ko sakanya.

Sandali Naman sya natigilan, bago tumingin sakin at nag salita.

"Pwede kanang lumabas by Wednesday, but you need to rest at home parin, don't stress yourself too much"