I know that this bullshit will happen! Alam kona na mangyayari ito, pero ang sakit parin pala kapag aktuwal na.
I know this day will come, akala ko magiging handa ako...
Hindi pala...
Ang sakit parin dito rhys.!
Pinilit Kong maging handa para dito, pero wala parin e. Masakit parin pala.
Masakit kung iisipin pero mas masakit pala pag nangyari na talaga
It's been four months since he left, but still. Masakit parin. Sobrang sakit parin!
Everyday was a mess, every night was a nightmare.
I keep on seeing him everywhere in our condo, sa kitchen na masaya Syang nag luluto. Sa sala na abala sa panonood ng sports, sa sala na abala sa pag lilinis, sa banyo na palaging tambayan namin, sa kwarto na kung saan mas maraming alala sakanya. Mababaliw na yata ako! Sya nalang palagi ang nakikita ko, sa bawat sulok ng condo.
Ang hirap pala! Sobrang hirap pala ng ganito. Hindi nako sanay na wala sya, wala ng nag tetext sakin pag umaalis ako, wala nakong nadadatnan na pag kain sa tuwing uuwi ako.
I miss him so bad, i miss rhys so damn fucking much! I miss mt rychi.
He dropped out from the school, even our friends doesn't know where he is. O baka alam nila at ayaw lang talaga nilang sabihin sakin. Wala na sya, naglaho na parang isang bula.
"Cholo, get up you need to go to school" marahang saad ni mommy. Pero nanatili lang akong naka higa sa kama.
She's been visiting me here in our condo everyday. Sya narin ang nag lilinis sa mga kalat na gawa ko gabi gabi.
"Cholo" saad ulit nito.
"Mommy ano ba?! Hindi nga sabi ako papasok!" Pasinghal na saad ko sakanya.
"But cho-"
"Mom stop talking please! Nakakasawa ng marinig yung boses mo araw araw! Can you just leave the fuck me alone! I don't need you here!"
"Sinasabi mo lang yan dahil galit ka-"
"YES I AM MAD! IM SO MAD AT YOU! TO MY BROTHER, TO MAURIZE! AND TO ALL OF YOU! KUNG HINAYAAN NYO LANG SANA KAMI NI RHYS! BAKA NANDITO PA SANA SYA NGAYON! KASO HINDI EH! PATI BUHAY KO PINAKIALAMAN NYO!"
I said, yes i do blame her, maurize told me everything, my mom talked to maurize,
And then BOOM! WALA NA! NASIRA NA.
"It's for your own good! Why dont you try understand it?!"
"For my own good? Huh?! Talaga ba mom?! O baka naman sa ikabubuti ng kompanya nyo! Ng image nyo?! Damnit! Bakit ba kasi ang hilig nyong maki sawsaw sa buhay ng may buhay! IKAW! SI KUYA EVEN! SI DAD! LAHAT KAYO KINONTROL AKO! LAHAT KAYO!"
"cholo"
"AND THEN WHAT?! KUNWARI CONCERN KAYO, BUT THE TRUTH IS YOU ARE SO FUCKING HAPPY THAT RHYS AND I BROKE UP?! gaano kahirap ang hindi maki alam sa buhay ng iba mom? Bakit hirap na hirap kayong gawin yun?!"
" Soon you'll understand me, my son"
"I will never understand you!, So please leave me here alone! I don't need a mother like you!"
"Cholo your mouth! Ako parin ang mommy mo! Give some respect-"
"Respect?! WOW! ako ba nirespeto mo? Hindi naman diba?!"
"Cholo for the second time, I'm saying this to you. Ginawa ko yun para sumaya ka!"
"Fuck it! Hindi mo ba nakikita na masaya ako kay rhys?! You just ruin my happiness! You ruined me! You ruined your own son! look at me now! Look how mess i am! Look what you did yo your own son! "
After i said those words to her, ay tiningnan lang nya ako sa lumabas ng kwarto.
My life was a mess, sana ay nandito ka rhys. I badly needed you right now, comeback to me please.
Third person POV
Cholo was a mess, he didn't attend his classes, all he does was to get drunk...
He keeps seeing rhys wherever he go, para na syang mababaliw. Until he ended up with an idea. And that is to kill himself,
He thought if he do that idea of him, rhys will comeback. Oh how wrong he is.
Gamit ang isang matalim na kutsilyo, ay dahan dahan nyang hiniwa ang pala pulsuhan nya. Blood.
A lot of blood, yan ang makikita sa puting tiles ng condo nya.
"Cholo!" Saad ng isang lalaki pag ka pasok nito sa condo ni cholo.
Kaagad nya itong binuhat at idinala sa pinaka malapit na hospital.
"You're doing this bullshit again! You need to live! Damnit!"
He's been in emergency room for almost two hours,
The moment he open his eyes, ay si rhys kaagad ang una nyang hinanap.
"Where's rhys? "
"Cholo ano kaba?! Tigilan mo na yan! Wala na si rhys! Hindi na sya babalik sayo!"
"No! Nakita ko sya, he's the one who brought me here right?"
Marahas naman na tumawa ang kuya light nya
"It's not rhys who brought you here, it was me"
Naging malungkot naman ang mukha ni cholo dahil sa narinig.
Buong akala talaga nya ay si rhys ang nag dala sakanya sa hospital.
"You need to move on cholo, hindi pwedeng ganito kanalang lagi"
Payo ng kuya light nya sakanya.
After that incident ay mas naging tutok ang lahat sakanya, maging ang pinsan nya na si AA at LA ay sa condo na nya natutulog para lang mabantayan sya. They are afraid that, cholo might hurt himself again.
Later on ay naging maayos din si cholo, mag mula ng kinausap sya ng kanyang kuya even.
He put some senses on Cholo's mind. Na syang tuluyang nag pa bago kay cholo, pero may isang bagay na hindi na nawala sakanya. He's smiling yet his eyes are so cold.
"After i graduate, i promise, i will find you"
Marahang saad nito sa sing sing na hawak nya.
"And when that time comes, I'll make sure that, i won't let you go again, kahit na hilingin mo pa ito sakin."
He said and wipe the small amount of tears that feel from his cheeks.
And true to Cholo's words, he did everything that is good for him, so when the time comes and they will meet again, he can finally fight for Rhys.
BINABASA MO ANG
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