Banana Fish AshxEiji

~part four~

"I'm sorry I wasn't there for you, I regret not coming sooner," Ash says, intertwining his fingers with mine, casting his glance down, making lemon yellow blonde strands fall in his face so I can't read his expression. I shake my head and say softly "hey look at me, it's not your fault," still getting used to talking again. Ash lifts his jade colored eyes to meet mine, tears threaten to fall from them "I could've been here sooner i-i-i thought you wouldn't want to me to come I put you through so much pain" Ash sputters out, his voice cracking, " and I just came here for selfish reasons I n-needed you I never thought that you were still thinking of me i-im so sorry eiji I never meant for this to hap-".

"Stop," I cut him off, "it's okay, you're here now, that's all that counts." I say trying to keep a calm complex, confused why he would think I wouldn't want him here why he would think I didn't need him.

We both take a breath and recover from the tears we both shed these past few months, a comforting silence falls over us.. Over these past months I forgot what it felt like to be complete, no matter what's happening around us when we are together there's a sense of completion. Everything is more colorful, easier, happier, lighter. No matter what has happened to us, when our souls are together we're unbroken.

Our hands are still interlocked, he gives my hand a tiny squeeze as if reminding me he's real. I look up at him realizing he's looking at me too, "what?" I say with a smile reaching my face.

"Nothing, I'm just happy," Ash says nonchalantly, as if for the past few months we havent been tearing ourselves apart over what happened. Over mistakes and what ifs, over what we could've done better, what we wished we could have said. I watch as his eyes tire, the shock of what happened starting to fade and safety falling on us like a warm blanket. I shift over in my small bed leaving room for him to lay next to me, "come here you need sleep". Ash looks confused, it's obvious he doesn't know how to react, I pull his hand down and the rest of him follows, allowing himself to relax.

"You're safe" I whisper, I wrap my arm around his shoulders and he hesitantly lets his head rest on my chest.