𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑢𝑝 𝐽𝑎ℎ𝑠𝑒ℎ

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Elle

*11 months later*

I moved back to my home town and not doing so well. My dad passed away and my mom at the same time. I've been in and out of mental hospitals over the pass months. I lost a lot of weight from it. I use to be 170 pounds and now I'm 98 pounds. I live on my own in my dads house. No one knows cause I stopped talking to people. Everyone has been trying to get in touch with me but changed my number twice so they wouldn't find me. I don't want no one to see me like this. The doctor said I need to gain weight or I'll be gone real soon. It's just a hard time for me.

Last week Corey got sentenced to 17 years in prison for something he didn't do. Jah and Stoke came by the house once and knocked on the door but I didn't open it. I just wanna get pulled out of the world. I've been eating a lot of junk food to get my weight up but it's going by really slow. I have online classes today so I sat at my desk and got started. I was doing it when someone knocked at the front door. I looked and Jah, Stoke and Sarah.

I closed my computer and locked my bedroom door and slid down crying. I'm all fucked up. I literally have nothing else to be alive anymore. I got up and wiped my tears away and went downstairs. I grabbed a whole bunch of food and sat in my room just eating it. I know I wanna die but I wanna get the help that I need and be happy again like I was a couple months ago. I got full of eating junk so I went to bed cause their was nothing else better to do them do that.