Memory

14. Chapter

Author's/POV

As Larry woke up in their bed alone, he wonders where his twin might be. The birds were already singing outside, the sun shining bright into the beautiful day. Already being motivated to start the new day, Larry sat up in the bed and started folding the blankets and fluffing up the pillows. Meanwhile a melody came to his mind, as if it was a song he heard million times in his life. There was a piano playing a lullaby-like melody, but he couldn't remember the lyrics to the song. As he just hummed the melody, doing the bed, Laurent slowly came into the room and after some seconds he realized which song Larry was humming there. The melody was one of their favorite nursery rhymes, Mama B sang it to them almost every day. It's name was "Au clair de la lune", a well known french childhood song. As he moved closer to his twin he began singing the text to his brothers humming, being slightly confused about the fact, that Larry remembered it.

Memories flooded Larry's mind, laughing childish voices, a woman singing to them in bed, cuddling into his brothers arms and finally... tears. Tears were running down his face as he had to lean back against his brothers chest for holding on to something he knew was real.
"Hey Bunny are you okay? Why are you crying?", Laurent carefully asked and hold his brother right away.
"I... I saw maman Lau. I saw you too and we were crying Laurent we were crying so much.", he whispered hid his face in his older twins chest. As Larry was still sobbing from those hurting memories, Laurent knew exactly what he remembered. Their father has been abusive, drinking all the time and has hit Larry multiple times just as Laurent and their mother. Most of the time their mother has kept singing this song as a reminder that everything was going to be okay and that they were able to sleep then. Now Larry memorized all of the pain this man caused their family.
"He is no longer here Larry. You are with me nobody is hurting you.", he whispered really softly, but still concerned. This wasn't supposed to be his first memory to get back. This was one of those memories, Laurent wished for Larry to forget and never get it back. Their father was nothing anyone was supposed to deal with after so many years of fighting against nightmares and panic attacks.
As Larry started trembling, Laurent sat him down on his lap and rubbed his back in small circles while kissing his cheeks permanently. He knew how his love's panic attacks worked, in some minutes he would start crying and hitting everyone near him, so he had to comfort him before he gets to this point.
"Baby look at me. Look into my eyes and I will promise you everything's gonna be okay?", he whispered, not caring about the nickname or anything else. He just rubbed his twins thighs and cupped his face with both hands.
"He hurt you so bad. He hurt me. He will hurt us again Lau.", the younger twin whimpered, shaking nervously and having tear filled eyes.
There was always one thing that would distract Larry in any situation, the one thing he lived for. Dancing. If there was his other half dancing only for him, he would soak in evey move and every twist in muscles there was, getting concentrated and fully blown away. In fact of that, Laurent stood up, started chandelier by Sia and started dancing. His eyes were on his love, his body moved to the emotional words of the song as if he was the one singing it, the one apologizing in the name of their alcoholic father. Tears streamed down Larry's face as he watched the pain in his brothers dance, but also the hope to get better thoughts and that everything was going to be okay. As the song ended and Laurents moved slowed down, his love immediately laid his arms around him and cried into his chest, not in cause of a panic attack, but because he felt so much love and so much comfort in his brothers dance his brothers eyes he just wanted to hold him tight and never let go.
"We will do something fun today okay? We will go out and eat and I will show you a lot of stuff you love and make you happy. Is that okay? Are you ready for that?", he whispered to his little brother, who seemed so fragile right at this moment.
The only response he got was a small nod with sniffing, not seeming to let go of him any time soon. As his hold was pretty strong Lau started smiling and stroked his twins hair.
"Aren't you hungry Bunny?", he asked jokingly, of course knowing the answer to that question, as Larry was hungry every hour the day had.

Hello there my loves! I really hope the idea with the small nursery rhyme was pleasing to read and the video was there for everyone! The next chapter will be more fun and eventful, I just felt like writing something emotional and not so common once :).