Memory

17. Chapter

"So you want to tell me that my last girlfriend left me because I stood up for you in an argument and she started hitting you so badly that you ended up in hospital? And I was together with her for two years? Oh my lord Laurent why have I done this to you? To me... to us."
A small laugh escaped Laurent's mouth as he played with his brothers hair while telling him about Melissa.
"That's the first time you see it like that. You were so focused on being in love that you didn't see that you aren't even in love. You played it. You tried so hard to convince everyone, even yourself, that you like women. You were so afraid of being gay even though you knew it since we were teenagers.", he explained, kissing his twins cheek for some seconds. The time with Melissa was hard for him, espacially as their relationship grew stronger with every look, but crashing again with each fight they had in cause of Mel.
"But it's stupid. If I like men then there is nothing wrong with it. I will stand for that from now on. I am proud to be gay. You are gay too, right? So somehow I have to protect you as well. My cute big brother needs some love and protection from me.", Larry cooed in a soft voice, patting his brother's thigh gently. The younger twin was cradled up to Laurent's chest, his elbows resting on the strong thighs of the other man. With knees drawn to his chest Larry listened to the stories he was told about everything before the 'incident'. The fact that he was currently confused by himself being so different from what he was now, or at least he believed to be quite different, there wasn't quite a way to tell, made him questioning a lot of decisions he made so far. Laurent seemed very surprised by some of his actions, so maybe his old self wouldn't have done something like that. Does this mean he wasn't himself anymore? Just a shell without his original personality? Or was he the man he would have become without the memories he experienced. He really couldn't tell by now. The only thing keeping him rather steady at the moment was Laurent. There was always a calming sensation around his brother, being that he barely knew him and still trusted him without a second thought. For the matter of fact, he was his twin. Enough reason to trust him. And then there was this incredible feeling besides from trust he felt whenever Laurent touched him, looked at him or spoke to him. Like his deepest instincts were just telling him that this was the man who owned all of him, his heart, his body, his soul. And somehow the thought scared him, but not enough to really consider it as terrifying. Just worrying...
"I really start to believe that you have a weird fascination for walls since you woke up Larbear.", he heard an amused snicker from Laurent along the words, a somewhat lopsided smile forming on the older ones lips. Larry just rolled his eyes at his brother, nudging his ribs with his elbow as a payback for the remark.
"I have a lot of thoughts running through my mind okay? It's a lot to take all of these information in. I feel like I'm hearing stories of an entire different person. You see, I don't give a damn about other people's opinion, but the Larry you are describing very much does."
The usually so childish twin sighed and frowned deeply. Why was there so much thinking involved in losing his memory? He felt like he was not really the best in this subject. A large hand started massaging his scalp slowly, as if trying to rub away the headache all of this caused. Larry felt himself melting into the touch, closing his eyes at the soft gesture and relaxing into his twins arms.
"I see it's bothering you, love. Try to not think about it too much. You don't need to be the Larry from before, you probably never will be. But I quite like this version of you. It's just... less afraid and I believe very much happier. Not a bad thing at all."
There was a brief pause before Larry eventually turned around in his brother's arms to hug him tightly, a soft smile on his lips.
"Thank you Laurent. It really means a lot to me.", he whispered, face hidden in the croak of Laurent's neck, afro tickling the older ones chin lightly. Larry's arms were hanging around Laurent's neck while Laurent found himself hugging the small of his lover's back, a thing he never really did before. Larry was definetly the dominant one in their relationship, leaving Laurent to nothing much but a girlier behavior. He was normally the one doing the female parts of a dance, was the one who never got to pay the bill and even hugs always ended in him hugging Larry's neck, while the other hugged his lower back. All this being reversed now gave Laurent a feeling of strange power and masculinity, he didn't even realize how little he had that in their relationship. Of course the older always bottomed too, not even sex was giving him the opportunity to show his masculinity at some point. And he realized he had been missing it until now.
"What do you think about dinner bunny? We should start preparing if you want to eat by six.", Laurent whispered, pulling back from his thoughts to smile at his other half. As always a twinkle formed in Larry's eyes when food was mentioned, so he eagerly nodded and climbed down from the couch. He tried to walk a few steps today with Laurent's help and even though such little time passed since the bullet knocked him out, he almost felt like being able to walk for a few minutes or stand a little longer. With careful steps Larry made his way over to the kitchen, helping himself by clutching to the wall or other objects for support. Once he reached the counter he beamed at his brother proudly. He did it!

Hey there my loves! It's been a while and I am pretty sorry, because this time I don't even have the excuse of not enough time on my side! Well there still is one eventually. My life changed drastically the past two months. My best friend for some years finally got out of my life and while she was the only other person I talked to about the Twins, they kind of disappeared too. I wanted to have as little reminder of her as humanly possible so I found myself in a new fandom (Harry Potter for God's sake) and I was pretty... caught up in reading and writing stories about it. I haven't quit the Twins fandom, I never will, but I took some time off of it.
So how are you guys doing now? I hope you all had wonderful Christmas and enjoyable holidays! Tell me about it if you want-I would love to hear from you guys some more :)