He Used To Be Mine (COMPLETED)

Thirty

A/N: I don't want this to end but it's time.

Nathan's Point Of View

I tried so much that it hurt me so badly. Wala eh. Wala na.

I've wasted our 8 years of marriage dahil lang sa nawala ang anak namin, dahil lang sa hindi pagkakaunawaan namin. Nagpadala na naman ako sa tukso for the nth time and I don't know what to do with my life anymore. As much I want to fix our relationship ayaw na niya I know how much Nadya was hurt because of the fvcking things that i've done and now i'm suffering.

Hindi ko alam kung saan na ako pupunta I have no home, my mother already moved out with my sister, I don't have enough money anymore but I still have my house pero ako nalang ang nakatira dito. My new wife left me and now I regret all the things that i've done kay Nadya kaya nung nalaman ko that she's here in the States agad akong dumiretso.

Kahit magkasubukan pa man wala akong pakialam basta I will do anything just to save our relationship even though it is already impossible to save it. Alam ko, she's now peacefully living with Drake but I don't know if they're together again as a couple so I still have time to destroy their relationship with each other.

I'm not living with my sister here because i'm with my friend and dito lang muna ako nag-stay pansamantala dahil bukas pa ako ba byahe papunta kina ate. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang magiging reaction nila after what i've done to Nadya baka mapagsabihan pa ako ng fans na pera lang ang habol ko sa kanya because after I became successful ay bigla na nagbago ang lahat.

Kahit kailan talaga may pa-epal sa mga buhay natin and yep it is Nadya's father bakit pa ba kasi nandito 'yan edi sana hindi nagkaganito ang mukha ko.

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It was 12am in the midnight and I tried to sneakout in Nadya's house and it was successful nakapasok naman ako vut I didn't thought na may guard pala na nakabantay. Their guard dogs bark so loudly kaya nagising sila lahat at bumungad sa akin ang mukha ni Nadya.

"Now, what are you doing here?" she asked.

"Trying to get inside your house and kill your pa-epal na tatay dahil pinapakialaman niya ang relasyon nating dalawa." after I said those words bigla akong sinalubong ng isang malakas na sampal mula sa kanya.

"Don't you ever call my father like that because I once saved your father's life. Sa tingin mo if I didn't insist to pay for your father's heart surgery he will live longer?" patanong niyang sabi. "Huwag kang umasta na parang kaya mo na ang lahat Nathan. Palibhasa mukhang ginamit mo nga lang talaga ako because you want to be successful para may maipagmalaki ka." dagdag pa niya.

I was left speechless. I don't know what to say infront of her. I felt my knees are trembling and parang nanginginig na ako because of what she said.

"Na-Nadya." yan lang lumabas sa aking bibig.

"Ano? Now what will you do?" she asked. "Tama na Nathan masaya na ako sa buhay ko ngayon and i'm extremely happy because i'm no longer with you. Sana hindi nalang ikaw yung minahal ko, sana binalikan ko nalang si Drake hindi pa magkakaganito ang buhay ko." dagdag pa niya.

"Please, let's fix our relationship." I said and begging her to fix all of my mistakes.

"Bago ka bumalik sa buhay ko, ayusin mo muna yang buhay mo. Learn, Nathan." she answered. "Kuya, palabasin niyo na po siya and sa susunod pag bumalik pa 'to dito pakibitaw nalang si Sparsky at Damior para wala ng gulo." she answered at pumasok na siya ulit sa loob.

I guess that's the end. I guess that's the last. I guess all of those things why i'm suffering right now it's because of all my mistakes.

Kailan pa ba ako matuto? Kailangan pa ba ako magbabago? Kailan?

"Ayusin mo muna yang buhay mo bago ka bumalik sa buhay ko." The last words she said.