Soundless Melodies

12.

"Jimin, are you sure you want this?" Hoseok asked in a confused tone at his best friend's revelation "I know it's temporary but still..."

"Yes, I want to dance again. Isn't moping around over a failed relationship enough?" Jimin stood up from his office chair "It's time I put myself first for once."

"It's just. What if Yoongi Hyung find out?"

"Who cares? He's probably going to get it as well, that's what he wanted most out all of this... he told me so."

"You know he didn't mean it like that."

"Whether he meant what he said or not, Hyung, this is about me and about what I have to do to get my life back."

"Jimin..." Hoseok held back his words even as they felt like they were about to burst through.

"It's not the first time a soulmate pair doesn't get along... isn't that what the surgery and the vaccine are for? I have to move on... it's been what? Almost a month?"

Hoseok's mouth opened up as he got ready to refute the youngest's point, until Jimin's phone rang. Both of them stared at it as its sound blared around the small office. Hoseok peeked catching Yoongi's name. Jimin pushed his phone away with a sigh.

"Are you not going to answer it?"

Jimin pursed his lips together sitting back down in his desk chair. He looked at Hoseok with a tired look.

"You, of all people, should know how hard it is, you've been through this."

Hoseok was taken aback by the statement. Jimin could tell.

"How am I supposed to know it's going to work out? How long am I going to force myself to do nothing I love when there's a chance for me to go back to my life?"

"Jimin. You're soulmates. He's not some guy you met and are dating just for the sake of it. For some reason your bodies are made for one another, your minds are made for one another, you guys are meant to be. You're going to give it all up because he was anxious and insecure?" Hoseok's frustration was starting to show "You know very well he didn't mean what he said to you."

"But I don't!" Jimin's voice burst out along with the tears in his eyes "I don't know shit! I just want this to be over... I-I want to stop feeling like this. It hurt's so much."

Jimin was now whimpering as his words left his mouth. "It feels like half of me was ripped from my body."

"I know."

"You don't. Because if you did you wouldn't be asking me to hold onto this pain just so I can have the perfect love story." The youngest faced at his best friend with a pleading look "Dance might help, so why can't I just forget about it for a while until the vaccine wears out and then I'll think it through."

"It might be too late by then Jimin..."

"I don't care!" His voice raised once again.

"You should." Hoseok's tone went up as well "I get you're fighting. I get it all too well but I promise you, what you're feeling right now is nothing compared to the feeling of not being wanted anymore. Do you know what it's like thinking you got time? Until you don't and the love of your life is gone because you were selfish?"

"You think I'm being selfish."

"No but I was. And I lost her before I could even tell her I loved her. Yeah, I got to dance again but I never got her back again, no one did." Hoseok cried.

"Hyung... I didn't know..."

"I thought I had time until I didn't. I thought that getting a surgery would be better and we had a fight because she felt I didn't care for her enough to wait for it to go naturally. In fact, I was just anxious, just like Yoongi Hyung is, that maybe we were never going to love each other like that. I didn't see her for 2 months because I went to a stupid consultation." The oldest dancer exhaled following up with a scoff. "And then... the day I made up my mind that she was the one I loved... she was gone."