Undeniable

4

dusk till dawn : zayn
'can you feel it through, all of the windows inside this room'

we woke up a little later this morning and we had to go to a quick talk in the hall before we could enjoy the rest of our day.

"okay so as you are aware, sundays are a relaxation day to do what you like. i just wanted to let you know that you can use this day to send a postcard or letter to your parents if you want to, to let them know how you are" the head said and everyone whispered excitedly while i just looked at the floor.

"i wanna tell my mum how much i miss her waffless omg" eliza said.

"same i wanna tell her i actually started making my bed in the mornings, she'll be so proud" ale laughed.

i reached up to fiddle with my necklace because that's what i normally did when i missed her, but i remembered it wasnt there and i felt a wave of sadness rush over me.

the speech was over so everyone started leaving to go do what they were doing so i made my way to my secret tower.

i walked in and put my phone and hoodie down on the pillows.

suddenly i heard the door open and my heart almost jumped out of my chest.

"what is this place?" mattia asked as he walked in.

"what are you doing here, leave!" i said pushing him towards the door but he just walked back in.

"why were you sad?" he asked and it kinda caught me off guard.

"i wasn't now go away" i said turning around.

"seriously what is this room?" he asked looking around.

"i found it and it's my place now so leave" i said but he didnt listen.

"so this is where you run away to all the time?"

"i like it here because i dont have to be near you so for fucks sake can you get out"

"why were you upset in the hall just now" he asked again and i looked at him weirdly.

"why the fuck do you care" i asked.

"i don't i just want to know"

"why?"

"oh my fucking god just tell me" he sighed.

"no, since when do you want to know-"

suddenly i felt his hands grab my face and his lips met mine. what the fuck is happening. we were kissing. after a few seconds i pushed him off me and stared at him, trying to figure out if the feeling in my stomach was butterflies or disgust.

"no no, you're a fucking asshole im not doing this" i said quickly and pushed him out the room and held the handle on my side so he couldn't get back in.

i heard him walk down the steps after a minute and i let go and sat down holding my head in my hands.

a polibio just kissed me. and the worst part is that i dont know how the fuck i felt about it. i dont like him. i hate him. so why did i not pull away straight away? fuck what's gonna happen now.

i sat there overthinking for about an hour. until it was dinner time. fuck i have to see him again. stop being a little bitch y/n you've ignored him for a week you can carry on now.

i got to the hall and jess and eliza were there and i sat down with them and they were talking about how fun their dates with kairi and ale were.

soon the boys showed up and sat down with us. me and mattia made eye contact and he looked like he wanted to die. same♥️

i grabbed my food and said bye to the others quickly and left the hall.

i got to the tower and set my food down and started eating while reading the book i had started the other day.

after 10 minutes there was a soft knock on the door. whose the one person that knows about this place. fuck.

i got up and slightly opened the door and there he was. looking at me. well this is awkward.

"can you let me in?"

i sighed and opened the door and he came in and sat next to me. it was silent for a couple minutes until he broke it.

"tell me why im a fucking asshole" he said.

"we spoke about this already" i sighed.

"so it was about the necklace" he said like it wasn't completely obvious.

"is that also why you were upset this morning" he asked.

"i was fine-"

"stop lying" he said and i looked at him. he looked like he might actually care.

"that necklace was my mums" i said quietly.

"so when everyone was talking about their mums this morning-" he looked at me.

"yours isnt here anymore is she?" he asked in a soft tone which i hadn't heard from him before. i wanted to say something but i figured he was maybe actually unaware so i didn't bring it up.

"that necklace was the only thing i had from her with me" i said.

"give me your hand" he said and i looked at him.

"you've already kissed me today can you chill" i said and his face went a little red.

"not like that, just open your hand out" he said but i ignored his instruction and asked what i wanted to ask all day.

"why did you kiss me"

he sat back down next to me and rubbed his face.

"if I'm being honest, i dont know" he admitted and looked at me.

"okay" i replied.

"can you open your hand out now" he asked.

"no can you leave now, this is my place" i said opening the door for him.

he looked at me before sighing and leaving.

i finished eating and reading and then decided to head back to my dorm.

i opened the tower room door and saw a folded tissue laying on the top step. i frowned, thinking he'd dropped his tissue but it looked clean and not wrinkled just folded. i picked it up and unwrapped it and i think my heart stopped for a second.

inside the white tissue, was my mums necklace.

i held it in my hands and hugged my chest happily before putting it on and breathing a sigh of relief.

the fucking asshole didnt throw it away.

A/N- chile not me updating again after saying gn to jess half an hour ago🙈

i hope you guys liked the chapterr, added a little bit of ✨fun✨

wish me luck i have double german tmrw and i have a vocab test in it and my german lessons literally make my anxiety go📈📈
im so bad at it and the teacher always picks randomly and i just want to die✨
pray 4 me💔

anyways goodnight / good morning fr now byee