Undeniable

15

call out my name : the weekend
'i helped you out of a broken place, you gave me comfort but falling for you was my mistake'

- 2 weeks later - 

"it's gonna be okay y/n" jess said as she hugged me.

"i miss her so much" i said quietly.

"me too. i can't believe it's been 8 years already" she said and i nodded.

we hugged for a few minutes until kairi got here and jess let him in. today was sunday so they were hanging out in here.

"hey, stay with us here" jess said as i got up.

"nah it's fine, i wanna be alone for a bit" i said and she nodded in understanding. 

i left the room and walked to the tower, praying mattia wasn't there. i got there and he wasn't and i was relieved. i don't wanna see him today. i know it's not his fault but i have to remember he is a polibio. and his family are the reason my mum isn't here anymore. i closed the door and there was a key on the window sill so i could lock it from the inside. after locking the door i sat down on my pillow and opened up of the book i had bought with me. my fingers traced the rough , worn front cover. i felt the pocket of the inside cover and pulled out the photo i kept in there. she was so young. and happy. and beautiful. they took her from me. and i'll never get her back. tears started rolling down my cheeks as i went through our memories in my head. 

i sat and cried , holding her picture against my chest. almost an hour later there was a knock on the door.

"wowww you're not funny , let me in" mattia laughed as he tried to turn the handle. 

i ignored him and held my breath so he wouldn't hear me cry.

"y/n??" he said knocking again. 

after a few minutes i heard a click.

"ha you're not the only one who can lockpick-" he said as he came in.

"wait what's wrong" he said quickly as he noticed me hugging my knees with my head down as i cried.

"y/n what's going on" he asked worriedly, putting his arm around me. 

i pushed him off and moved away into the corner of the room. 

he's a polibio. he's a polibio. he's a polibio. he's a polibio. he's a polibio. he's a polibio. he's a polibio. i kept reminding myself as he tried to comfort me. 

"y/n-"

"please just leave me alone" i cried , my voice becoming weaker by the second as i looked at him. 

"no, i'm not leaving you alone" he said , wrapping his arms around me.

i tried pushing him away but he wouldn't let go. i cried and cried into his chest as he held me tight. 

he's a polibio. he's a polibio. he's a polibio. he's a polibio. he's a polibio. he's a polibio.

"go away" i cried as my mind flashbacked to when she died and how satisfied they were seeing her lay lifeless in my arms. 

i pushed him with all my energy , which wasn't much. 

"you're not okay-" he said.

"because of your fucking family! leave me alone i hate you" i screamed as my voice cracked and my eyes flooded with more tears. 

i saw the hurt in his eyes as i said i hated him. i don't hate him. i hate them. but he's one of them. but- fuck i hate it here. 

his eyes travelled to the open book laying on the floor and the photo next to it. then he realised.