cyber miscommunication

coming to terms with things

To Gulfs apartment, he laid his back to his door, to look to the wall a bit confused.
So......emma319..... Is a boy...... Not a girl like you once thought...... They seem exactly how they were in the chat..... Nice..... Considerate
Happy.......
Gulf chewed at his cheek.
Then his eyes widen has the realization come into his mind, with that he ran to his bathroom to place his head in the toilet losing his Ice cream.
Done, he laid to the wall, to breathe heavily, to gulp.
You..... Are over reacting but...... You masterbated yes to thoughts of a women but it was really a......
Gulf placed his hand to his stomach to groan.
Why couldn't they just have said they were a boy from the start? Why didn't I ask? Would we have gotten this close of I knew they were a boy?
Gulf made a face to get up to go to the sink to wash his mouth.
Up, he looked himself in the mirror.
Be truthful and honest with yourself, if I had known he was a boy, I wouldn't have told him about my past relationships, wouldn't have told him about growing up, wouldn't have talked to them almost all night long.
Gulf took a deep breath in, to then take his clothes off to take a shower.
What am I really going to do? I gave them my phone number, said I would go to there bar this weekend, that I would talk to them through out this game.
I..... Didn't lie.....I did feel really comfortable with them...... Boy or not, but..... Should I continue with this. Why did my heart race when I saw them sniffing that flower?
Gulf signed heavily in the shower.
He is very pale, looked like a girl when he did that. My mind probably got confused, still wishing they had been a girl, was wishing to get to know them further, maybe even too.....
Gulf looked down to make a gagging sound.
Why the fuck are you hard! Emma319 is not real, they are a boy. Knock it off!
Turning his shower to cold, his erection went away for him to take the shower, to then dry and dress to go to his bed to lay to his back to look to the ceiling a bit muddled.
What am I to do? I keep thinking that emma319 is. Girl but has I saw they aren't.
Gulfs face fell, I do feel bad that I made them cry, I really didn't mean to do that.
We were both in the wrong. Should have asked, he should have told.
Could we talk become friends?
They did say they liked me, but I made it very clear to them I am not that way.
They seemed to understand, but could they be lying?
Gulf took a deep breathe in.
I don't think this is going to work. I'm trying not to...... Place every homosexual in the same category has the one who tried to....
Gulf turned to his side to make a disgusted face.
He didn't want to think about them, but meeting mew, he didn't seem to be like that.
Gulf groaned.
What am I really going to do? Maybe I should just ignore them but when I did that I was un easy and felt sad. I really did miss them.
Gulf took a deep breathe in to sit, looking to the open door of his bathroom. He was hearing his phone go off.
Up, he went in the bathroom, to find his pants, to retrieve his phone, to then go back to his bed to sit to the edge to let it ring.
It read emma319.
Taking a long deep breath, he then saw a text.
Opening his phone he read.
Mew: gulf, I really had a lot of fun today. Hope to see you on Saturday. Hope to hear from you soon. Don't over work yourself.
Gulf couldn't help but smile.
It had been awhile since anyone cared this much for him. Even when he was in his relationships they eventually stopped caring, but for almost 5 months straight, this person still was like this.
Gulf took a deep breathe in.
If you take out there sexual orientation, they are still a human being with feelings and emotions like you. Gulf...... You have to give them a chance, you owe them that, but if they try to do anything, you stop it and let them go.
Gulf: I did too. I still need that address, you better keep your word and pay for my drinks, but that does not mean I will take advantage. Don't over work yourself, remember we still need to find the 4 gems and kill a lot of zombies.
Mew: I'll send you the address tomorrow and I know you won't lol I won't over work myself and you are right we both need our strengths to find these gems.
After that the two couldn't help, texting back and forth till they both fell asleep several hours later.
Waking the next morning, gulf couldn't stay away from looking to his phone.
He say up to unlock to smile.
Mew: I'm getting tired. I see you haven't texted back in 20 minutes, I think you are asleep. Have sweet dreams and I hope you have a great day at work.
Gulf: I did fall asleep, I hope you have your ringer off, hope I don't wake you. Sleep well and I hope you have a great day at work. I'll see you in the gaming universe.
Gulf stopped texting to think of something.
Gulf: for me. Can you change your profile picture to show you?
Gulf held his phone re reading. Not understanding, but he erased it, to send the other.
He took a deep breath in to them get up to go to the bathroom to relieve himself while he left his phone to his bed.
He didn't know why, but he still wanted to see that photo, also he didn't want others to take emma319's attention. With how this person was, if they did change that profile, more people would want to play with them, then how they were, would keep others. Gulf really didn't want to lose them to others.
His eyes widen, has he brushed his teeth in that realization, then he shook his head.
It is only because you want him has you friend, he could even become your best friend. Now gulf, you need to get them out of your head and go to work.
Has gulf got ready, the meet up kept going through his head, he couldn't stop thinking of mew, there body type, there eyes, there laugh, the way they held themselves. Gulf was also a bit envious. Maybe if he was like that, he would have more friends, but mew was more then enough.
Dressing with a smile, he couldn't wait until they talked again, he really couldn't wait until Saturday.