cyber miscommunication

how could you do this!

Going back home, gulf placed his body to the back of the door, had hung, to breathe heavily.
I..... Can't believe........ He....
Balling he's fists, gulf went to his room, to go under his bed to pull out a bag he never used to go to his dresser, to mews things to gather everything.
Looking to the top, he slide in all his make up and other things.
Zipping the bag, he tossed it to the side of the dresser, to look to the mirror he had brought for mew, to look himself over.
I..... Can't believe.....I was about to tell...... Him......
Grabbing the mirror in his own anger, he threw it to the wall to breathe even more heavier, looking to it.
"You..... Fucking..... God damn liar! You said, you promised me!"
Going to his knees, gulf hung his head, to wrap his arms around.
You...... Fucking lied to me..... Just like..... My adoptive mother...... She made me believe, that she loved me......... And when I couldn't work....... She tossed me to the side...... She was just like you mew! She promised me so many things then........ Is that what you were going to do to! I...... Can't believe anything you say mew....... God damn it! Why did I have to fall in love with you! This is a cruel fucking joke!
Lifting his head he looked to the wall with the mirror pieces to take a deep breathe in to sign.
Up, he went to the kitchen, under the sink to grab a trash bag.
Kneeling, carefully he picked up the pieces.
I..... Can't believe I was so...... Naive and...... Stupid to believe....... You wouldn't have lied......I also..... Can't believe..... I'm the one who...... Placed those brusies to your wrists..... That I....
Wincing, gulf looked to his finger to see he was bleeding.
He signed, to get up to go to the bathroom, to the medicine cabinet, to grab a bandage.
Placing it on, he looked to the mirror.
"I..... Can't believe.....I was..... Going to ask you.... To move in with me...... To be my....... How many people have you've told mew....... How long did you tell your parents...... We were......"
Turning, gulf hung his head to wrap his arms around.
I...... Can't trust anyone...... They always lie..... Always...... Decieve me....... What did you have to gain by this mew.....mmm....
Taking a deep breathe, the realization of mew still had a key, set in.
Gathering his phone from his back pocket, he took it out to dial an old friend.
"Hello?"
"Frip?"
"Yes. Who is this?"
"It's me gulf. I don't know if....."
"Oh hey..... Yes I remember you..... Haven't spoken to you in a year, surprise you still had my number. How are you doing?"
"I'm...... Okay ish um.....I know this is coming out of no where but..... Could I crash on your couch for...... About a month?"
"Oh?"
"I'm moving, the other place isn't ready yet, I'll be out by the first of the month. Just don't have any money for a hotel for that long."
"Okay, I see I see. Well I'm kind of on the outs with my girl. I think that would be fine. Do you still know where I live?"
"Yes. Thank you so much frip, I really am appreciate of this."
"No problem, it'll be less then when you stayed 6 months after we graduated from high school."
Gulf took a deep breathe in, he didn't like to think of that time, the time he was homeless for a year after graduation.
Well again thank you."
"No problem. See you tomorrow then?"
"Um..... Could I...... Go there in an hour?"
"That's fine, that's fine. See you soon then."
Gulf hung up to look to his phone with a frown.
One of the other reasons he stayed away from his friends, was this. He couched surfed for 6 months with others after he stayed with frip. That was when he started to date and gulf knew he was becoming a bother.
To be with his friends, it reminded him of this and he didn't like it, that's a reason why he placed them to the back of his mind, till now.
Placing his phone to his pocket, he went to his closet to grab his back pack to go to his dresser to grab clothes, then back to the bathroom to gather toiletries.
Zipping, he went out, to stare at the broken mirror.
All......I wanted from you mew..... Was.... Honesty......I..... Need someone to trust......I was all ready to give you my heart, body and soul.....I have never done that for anyone...... You being a boy.....I was going to over look it...... You..... Probably have turned me gay but now...... When I think of you..... All I see is someone I want to kick the living shit out of..... You've hurt me mew...... You have hurt me more...... Then anyone..... More then my...... Adoptive parents, more then that pedophile, more then that drunk gay asshole to my work.....
Tears then started to come down Gulfs face.
I...... Really loved you...... Wanted to..... Share everything that is me...... To you...... And you..... Had to look me in the eye and lie........ We..... Could have moved in together....... Been..... Boyfriend's..... But.....I can't trust you......I can never ever trust you again.....
Gulf hung his head to let the warm tears streamed down his face.
Bringing a hand up, he clutched his hand to his shirt, that was over his heart.
I...... Love you so much mew..... Why..... Why did you have to hurt me like this....I.... Told you.....I hate liars...... You knew this and yet you.....
Gulf turned his head to eye the mirror.
"I...... Just don't know why..... You had to lie...... You only thought of yourself..... We.... Could have been.......I was going to give up.... Being straight for you..... Was going to tell everyone that you were my man..... Then you did this.....I...... Just.... Can't...."
Turning his head, he looked to his wall that held the chocker he gave him over a pin.
Stepping to it, gulf eyed to grab to place it in his pocket.
Turning he left, he couldn't run the risk of mew coming over and seeing him. Gulf was full of emotions and he knew he didn't want to hurt mew, didn't want to lay another finger on him.
To the bus, gulf sat, clutching the chocker to his body, head hung to cry.