cyber miscommunication

couldn't handle the jealousy

When gulf woke, he was too his back with mews shirt to his body, moving up, gulf looked to it, to chew at his cheek.
Clutching it, gulf signed to peer his eyes to the side, letting a hand go to it to pat.
Mew......
Shaking his head, he got up to wince a bit to go to his bathroom to relieve himself then wash his hands to go to the table to eye mews finished plate and his with food still upon it.
Grabbing, he took it to the kitchen to place on the microwave, to lean his body to the other side to the counter, to wrap his arms around his body, to watch.
Can......I actually go till Friday without seeing him..... Was I too mean to mew.....I know he told me I didn't take advantage but....
Hearing the ding, gulf grabbed the food to then go to the table to eye where mew sat a few hours ago.
Taking a hand to his lower, it still hurted him but not has much has before.
I..... Still can't believe I had sex with a.....
Gulf leaned his body to the chair to pick at his food.
This realization was hard to process for him.
On one side it was an incredible over the top experience on the other was the fact he had done this with a friend and there were a male, a gay male.
Gulf gritted his teeth.
"If you take out my sexual orientation, you will have a greater experience, friends do this gulf."
Gulf signed has he heard mews words in his head.
Do..... Two guys..... Who are friends..... Actually do this?
I honestly don't know...... Never was this close to any other boy before.......
Could it be......mew really is the one taking advantage of you....... Since he is gay and all..... Maybe he wanted this.....
Gulf furrowed his eye brows to fork some food in anger.
That..... Doesn't really add up though..... Your the one who asked him for a..... But he is the one who went further.......
God damn it! I don't know how to think or feel about this......
The remainder of Sunday, gulf cleaned and indulged in things that were not the game trying to keep him distracted.
Monday' then rolled seeing, gulf was happy to go.
At lunch, he looked to his phone to sign.
Mew: hope you didn't end up blocking me. Wanted to say I hope you have a happy day and take some medications for any pain you may be experiencing.
Gulfs eyes darted to close his phone to place it to his back pocket, to lean himself against the wall feeling like a piece of shit again.
Why are you so nice to me after how I treated you?
Looking up, his boss came to him, to tell gulf to go home. They were all caught up with work for the day.
Nodding, gulf didn't really want to go home. Mew wouldn't be there like he usually was.
Going home, he stood in the hallway to look where mew would be to pout.
Really..... Wish you were here......
Shaking his head, gulf went in.
Making something to eat, he tried to keep his mind clear of the situation at hand.
Gulf really didn't know how to go about this.
It was fantastic but it was also wrong, very wrong.
Finished eating and cleaning, after his shower he eyed the black computer screen.
What should I do? Should I...... Block him from everything again...... Stay away from him.....I...... Don't really want to....... Could we just forget about it...... Should it define us?
I really wish to know what mew was thinking to this. Did he really do this to help me? Is there some hidden agenda?
Why didn't he stop it? Why did he go further then a blow job?
Gulf signed.
Becoming frustrated he turned on the computer to start the game, happy he didn't have any notifications from mew. He was alone in the game, going around, he started to kill zombies.
Growing a bit bored, gulf started to try and find mews avatar without knowing it.
Looking in his normal places, he couldn't find him. Standing alone I'n a forest, gulf had enough.
Going to the chat, he typed.
Gulfie22: emma319: where are you?
Emma319: you are on here early.
Gulfs eyes darted.
Gulfie22: where are you?
Emma319: I'm giving you space. Won't see you till Friday.
Gulf made a pout.
Gulfie22: about that........I don't want to go that long without seeing my friend. Can you come over? I'm sorry for how I treated you.
Emma319: mmm......I don't know. Was going to make a cake run. Can we meet at the ice cream place?
Gulf smiled, his heart raced in his chest.
Gulfie22: I'll see you there.
Turning off his computer, he was there waiting for mew. Has he entered, he sat to his favorite food already ordered.
The two talked of everything but what happened.
Mew decided to let it go and not talk about it. He wanted to be in Gulfs life even if he had to keep his life for this boy a secret. Even though gulf had multiple questions for him, gulf didn't ask.
The rest of the week, was a bit awkward at times but it went by normal.
By Saturday, gulf went to the club not wanting mew to be by himself.
However, watching him flirt with others was driving gulf into insanity.
He didn't know why, it used to just bother him but now, it really was pissing him off.
Seeing him, take it a step further to place his hand to a man's chin.
Gulf grew bitter and mad.
Turning, he had enough of this weird feeling of jealousy.
Seeing a girl, gulf went right to her and stayed to dance.
Mew looked to them to sign sullenly.
His eyes widen, has gulf was being pulled by her.
Gulf kept his head hung not to look to mew.
He knew if he saw that face, this wouldn't happen, but he knew it needed to.
To a hotel across the street, the two kissed heavily on the bed.
Gulf was confused. He was not getting into it. His member didn't twitch, throb or become erect.
Moving his lips off of hers, he went down to her neck. She moaned heavily.
Gulf gritted his teeth, still nothing.
Taking a hand up, he started to rub his hand around her bra to feel an erect nipple but still nothing.
What the hell is wrong with me?! Should be hard has a rock now.
Signing, he closed his eyes to oddly think of the last time he had sex, mew came into his mind, kissing the girls neck, he started to think of mews fingers inside of him.
"Mmm...... Can you..... Play with my hole?"
Gulf unconsciously asked, thinking he was talking to mew.
The girl widened her eyes to look to him confused.
"Excuse me?"
Gulf opened his eyes to widen to come up with something.
He leaned back to look to her in fake lust to look down to his un open pants back to her.
She nodded.
"Mmm.... That hole...."
Looking down, she unbutton to unzip to take out Gulfs limp member to place with his slit. Nothing happened.
She eyed it confused.
Gulf gritted his teeth to look.
God damn it!
Giggling, she tried to stroke but nothing.
Hearing that laugh, gulfs member went more in.
He groaned, to move off of her to sit to the edge to fix himself.
"I..... Need to use the bathroom. I'll be back."
She nodded.
Gulf got up to walk to the bathroom door.
Looking to the side, he shook his head.
This was not going to happen.
Leaving in silence, gulf went back to the club shaking his head.
What the fuck is the matter with me?
Inside, gulf looked to the bar, to lean himself to the wall, he didn't know why but his heart started to sink.
Inside, he kept his eyes to mew and this guy talking very close to another.
Seeing gulf go off with a girl, mew could tell what was going to happen, he knew he wouldn't go home with gulf and with a sinking heart, mew wanted to have a one night stand.
Nodding, with a smile, mew went to the other bar tender to then place his hand in the others.
Gulf leaned away from the wall pissed.
Is he.... Going home with...... Another!
Gulf took a deep breathe in.
You were with another but..... Nothing happened, mew would go all the way.
Why..... Is this hurting not just my heart but my soul has well......
Damn it! He is mine.....mmmm..... He is my friend! He goes home with me not any one else.
Letting his jealousy consume him, gulf went to them.
The other was leading mew to the door, he kept his head hung, regretting this idea. Rather they were in a relationship or not, gulf had mews heart.
Signing, he stepped quicker to the guy, to place his hand to his shoulder to take his hand away, the man stopped to turn, eyeing mew questionably.
Just then gulf went to them to grab mew by his wrist to pull him along.
The man stepped forward to grab mews other, gulf turned letting go of mew to push the boy away.
Mews eyes widen.
"Mew is mine. He only goes home with me, get lost."
Mew brought a hand to his mouth to snicker, watching gulf be jealous was a sight to behold and it was quite adorable.
The boy eyed gulf then mew.
"Thought you were single. Who is...."
Gulf stepped too the boy to wrap his hand around his collar. He stared we him.
"Yes he is. I am good friend. You look like a pervert. Now..... Like I said. Get lost!"
Pushing the guy away, gulf grabbed mew by by the wrist to pull him along.
Mew hung his head looking to this action with a giant smile then it disappated a bit.
You..... Won't let me.... Be with another... Yet you..... With that girl....
Mew signed has he was pulled along to be taken to a taxi to go to Gulfs home.