The Souls blessed by God to be TOGETHER (Sidnaaz)☑️

PART 53

Shehnaaz looked outside the window with sidharth standing beside her. Their faces were getting cold with the cold breeze. Shehnaaz folded her arms over her chest and spoke looking outside...

Inn teen saalon mein m kabhi ghar nhi gyi. vo jagah, vo city mujhe achhe nhi lag rhe the. infact mujhe apne hi shehar se nafrat si hone lgi thi. vahan mera ghar hai. maine apni ab tak ki life bitayi hai vahan lekin abhi mujhe vo jagah bilkul bhi achhi nhi lag rhi thi. m vapis nhi jana chahti thi vahan. mujhe bas akele rehna tha kahin.....sabse door kyunki tum paas nhi the. tum door the. tumhare paas jana tha lekin jaa nhi skti thi aur jo paas the unke paas jane ka man nhi tha. i know m sab ko hurt kar rhi thi, sab ko pareshan kar rhi thi yahan akele reh kar, un sab se door reh kar lekin m nhi reh skti thi sab k sath jab tum akele the. tum mujhse door the, hum sab se door the. tumhe dard m akela chhod kar m sab k sath khush nhi reh skti thi. tum vahan takleef m the,dard m the, akele the to m kaise yahan khush rehti. mera dil to tumhare paas tha na to vo takleef m tha kyunki tum takleef m the aur m vo takleef feel karti thi. Akele rehne m bhut takleef hoti thi lekin un sab k beech rehne se bhi tumhari yaad to nhi jaa skti thi. tumhe to nhi bhool skti thi. family k samne, friends k samne khush ek fake smile k sath nhi reh skti thi m aur apna dard kisi ko dikhana nhi chahti thi kyunki usse sirf m un sab to bhi dard deti aur kuchh nhi. Isiliye, iss jagah ko apni duniya bna liya. Ek aisi duniya jisme sirf m thi aur mera dard, vo dard jo tumse juda tha aur vo dard jisse mujhe khud hi sehna tha. lekin kam se kam iss chhote se ghar m mujhe khush hone ka jhootha dikhava to nhi krna padh rha tha. Iss ghar ne mere vo teen saal dekhe hain sidharth. jab mujhe har pal aisa lagta tha k agle pal tak m jee nhi paungi dard se par Iss jagah ne mujhe teen saal tak bacha kar bhi rakha hai. Iss shehar ne, iss ghar ne mera itna dard dekha hai k ab iss jagah se dil jud gya hai. Meri takleef dekhne k sath sath mujhe vo takleef sehan krne ki himmat bhi di hai. Kabhi nhi pta tha k tumhare bina jeena itna difficult hoga k jeene ka man hi nhi krega.

Saying she took a long breath looking outside. Sidharth was just looking at her realising what their lives had been turned into last three years. How much they both had suffered without each other. With each passing moment he was realising the intensity of her love more and more. He was realising more and more that how much she had loved him to go through the pain. He was feeling so much loved at that moment. He was realising how much their hearts had been connected to each other that they couldn't bear the other one in pain, that they could feel each other's pain, that they had such strong feelings for each other he never thought in his life that he could have for someone. She lived alone for three years because he was away from his people. She lived alone because he wasn't there with her. She was in pain because he was in pain. All those realisations were making his heartbeats fast by each passing moment. He was just looking at her drawing in the new realisations. They both had realised their feelings for each other long before but he never knew that the intensity of their love would be at such an extent that it would just blow his mind. He was getting so overwhelmed with the realisations that he wasn't able to control his emotions. Not able to control he was hold her wrist and pulled her into himself and wrapped his arms around her as tight as he could.

He just wanted to feel her as close into himself as he could. He wasn't understanding what was happening to him but he was so overwhelmed with emotions. He wanted to listen her heart beats to calm himself down. His eyes were closed feeling her. The realisation that she had lived alone for three years just because of him made his more and more tight on her. He was completely crushing her into himself. Realising her pain, her sufferings he was trying to hide her into himself to take away her pain. He wanted to protect her by hiding her in his strong protective arms. He just wanted to keep her close to himself. He completely forgot about his own pain, his problems, his sufferings. At that moment, he just knew one thing that they both couldn't be away from each other. They both couldn't live without each other. He realised that they both had become parts of each other that now they couldn't live without each other. He didn't know what future holds for them but he knew now that being away from each other would only lead them to their end.