Guardian (Nishinoya x Reader) 🏐

Chapter 42: My Voice

*4 MONTHS LATER*

A lot has changed.

Physically and mentally for me.

I'll be honest, treatment wasn't easy. AT ALL. But it was 100% worth it.

Once getting over the bumps at the very beginning, I continued to push forward, swerving around the various obstacles blocking my path to freedom.

But here I am now. I'm still not perfect, far from it actually. But my weight has been 75% restored as well as a major improvement on my mindset.

I know when to reach out for support and I don't feel afraid to ask.

My anxieties over eating in large groups have dissipated.

Calorie counting is nonexistent.

My hunger cues have made a come back.

I'm tackling fear foods left and right.

And although I am still managing a difficult relationship with exercise, it is far better than where I started.

Unfortunately, I still struggle with body image every day. Some days are better than others, but it's just so odd to see myself in a bigger body. It's like I'm living in a new home.

Home. You're probably wondering what happened with my mom. Did she ever come around? Do we talk? Do we get along? The answer is simple. Sad, but simple. I'm afraid she may never come around. We've tried everything, even family therapy, to which she even made the therapist cry...

ANYWAYS, bright side is that today I get to go on a shopping spree with Bokuto and Akaashi for a whole new wardrobe (since a majority my clothes aren't fitting anymore). Eeeee so exciting! I would have gone with Yuu, but apparently he is busy during the day.... BUT later today, he told me he had a HUGE surprise for me. Ahhhh even more exciting!

As if right on cue, the door bell rang. I skipped down the stairs just in time to see my brother swing open the door, revealing the two Tokyo boys.

"Akaashi! Bokuto!" I squealed in excitement.

Not even acknowledging my brother, I ran right past him and leaped into a group hug with the two smiling boys.

"We missed you, kid," Akaashi held me tighter and spoke just loud enough for me and only me to hear.

Yeah it's been too long...

Since being in treatment, I haven't been able to see any of the Tokyo boys since I'd been so busy making up all the schoolwork I missed. But now that it's winter break, they've come to see me, and I couldn't be happier to spend the day with them.

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As we arrived at the mall, my excitement turned into a bit of nervousness. Like woo hoo new clothes... but AH it's scary to think about... That my old clothes won't fit and I don't even know what size I'd be now...

"What store do you want to go to first?" Bokuto's cheery voice interrupted my spiraling thoughts.

"Uhhh," I was caught off guard, "Somewhere with clothes?" Yeah... straight A student... and that's the best you got?

Akaashi just shook his head and let out a light laugh, realizing I must've spaced out.

"Do you at least know what kind of clothes you want to get?" he asked politely.

I shrugged. "Honestly, I probably need a whole new wardrobe. But since my weight is still constantly fluctuating, it would probably best for me to stick to leggings for now." I thought for a moment. "Maybe some nice clothes. I've spent most of my days in athletic wear. Would be nice to buy a sundress or a romper," I shrugged.