Guardian (Nishinoya x Reader) 🏐

Chapter 21: Waves of Change

*A/N: Here is the closet glimpse you'll get at a face reveal. But this blonde haired blue eyed girl I drew with Kageyama is your lovely Author-Chan!

So sorry for interrupting. Now let's get back to the story*

*Y/N's POV*

Everything was dark. Pitch black. My hearing was the first to recover. It started with a low ringing that slowly formed into an obstructed slur of words. I strained my ears, desperately trying to make out words.

"... be okay."

"Call ... Kur... take ... phone."

I only picked up on traces of words, not knowing who voices they belonged to or where I was. It especially didn't help that there was an inconsistent sound muffling over the top of the voices. I couldn't distinguish what it was, but I'd say the sound is similar to gears whirring and harsh winds whipping by every few seconds.

"I think she's gaining consciousness. I just saw her eyelashes flutter."

My body was still limp, but I was bent at the waist, like I was sitting up. No, like someone was propping me upright. An arm curled around the front of my body, bracing my lower back, holding me up.

My head was resting against something. It definitely wasn't a pillow. Maybe someone's chest, a male's chest of course. And was there...? Yes. There was definitely hand softly placed against my cold cheek and gently stroking the stray strands of hair framing my face.

Momentarily. Very briefly. I managed to lift my eyelids, squinting profoundly through the bright rays of light that pushed its way through the sliver of opening I created for my piercing dark blue eyes.

My vision appeared as if I was wearing high prescription glasses. The world was foggy and unclear, but I managed to peer up at the boy who was holding me. I could only differentiate the colors that hovered above me. Using common sense, I assumed the wisps of silver belonged to the one and only Sugawara. Just with this bit of information, knowing I was in good hands, put me at ease. My shoulders relaxed. A wave of relief washed over me.

I shut my eyes again, but immediately widened them once more. My vision improved ever so slightly. Now realizing I was in a moving car, I glanced over to see who the driver was. My eyes were met with the side profile of the dark, wavy haired setter of Fukurodani.

Suddenly, the vehicle came to a halt. I adverted my eyes back up at Suga. This time, he was staring back down at me, our eyes finally meeting.

His thumb now brushing lightly across my cheek, he gave me a soft, reassuring smile, "Hey princess, we're gonna take good care of you. Don't you worry."

To let him know I heard, I gave a very small nod and blinked my eyes. At my response, his smile widened, showing off light dimples at the corners of his mouth.

My vision almost fully clear, I examined Suga's face. His eyes were red and puffy. It was no secret that he had been crying quite a bit. And as for that smile... that smile plastered on his face wavered, exposing the pain and worry hidden behind it.

What have I done?
My actions have caused someone this much pain.

Oh god.
Tobio and Yuu.
Where are they?
Do they know?
They're probably torn to pieces, worried sick.

Ugh
All because of my selfish actions.

I can't handle stress and pressure, so I take it out on food and exercise. I can't help it. I really try, but clearly I'm not trying hard enough.

I need to fix this.

For me.
My health.
My mentality.

For my friends.
For my brother.
For my sport.

I can't keep doing this to myself.

This ends ... TODAY.

Enough of my shit already. I don't care what mom or dad thinks, I need to get professional help.

Suga unbuckled the grey seatbelt that was slung across the both of us.

I felt the car door open to my right, so I turned my head slowly, meeting Akaashi, who was bent down to my face level. "Hey there. We just arrived at the ER," he informed me.

Suga carefully stood up out of the car, still cradling my feeble body tightly in his arms. He walked along side Akaashi in the direction of the emergency room's main entrance.

"Kuroo is on the way over with your brother and your boyfriend now," Suga spoke barely above a whisper as if being careful not to give me a headache.

I nodded in response, leaving my head feeling dizzy once again. I tried to shift my weight in his arms, feeling guilty that he had to carry me.  I shakily slung my arms around his neck and weakly tried to pull myself into an upright position, but during the attempt, I instead caused myself to grow a worse headache.

"Y/N! Please don't overexert yourself! You could pass out again with too much quick movement!"

The same rush of dizziness from before lingered over me. I squeezed my eyes shut in defeat and this time I just kept them shut hoping the aches would go away.

I can no longer live this way. The damage is done and I need to take action.

I allowed myself to drift off to sleep, thinking of one thing and one thing only.

Sometimes in the waves of change, we find our true direction.

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*A/N: I apologize for the shorter chapter, but Chapter 21 and 22 together were a tad bit too long in my opinion.

Hope you enjoyed this chapter anyways though. Love my mom squad.