Three Months Later
Serena's P.O.V
I'm officially retired from wrestling and living in Chicago again. I retired about two months ago. I'm single, by choice. Have been for a while I guess. In my opinion, one month single is a long time without someone. I do get lonely. I still talk to Trey a lot and he constantly hits on me. As for Roman, he's still on the road. I don't talk to him. AT ALL! I have no reason to. There hasn't been a day where I haven't thought about Jordyn. That's part of the reason why I don't wrestle anymore. Monday Night Raw is going to be in town tonight. I'm still debating if I want to go. I don't even watch wrestling anymore. It just brings back memories. I definitely still want to see my girls. I still talk to them
Although I haven't spoken to Caleb in a long time, he tries to talk to me. He knows about Jordyn though, but that's about it. We still live near each other. It's 5:30pm and I'm doing my daily routine: cutting myself in the tub
Don't be quick to judge, bitch! I've been through a lot! What the fuck would you do if you lost your daughter and your ex husband made you feel like a worthless piece of shit?! I'm not going back to therapy! I don't need anyone else to judge me or medicate me. I self medicate
I let the tub water out, then I turned on the shower head and began taking a shower. There was a knock on my door. I stepped out of the shower
"Coming!" I said as I tied my robe around me. I opened the door to Caleb "Yes?...."
"Can I come in"
"Sure....."
Caleb came in and stood in the middle of the room "I was just wondering if you were going to Monday Night Raw"
"I don't know. Why?" I leaned against the wall in front of Caleb
"I just wanted someone to go with me"
"I'm probably not going to go"
"Why? Don't you miss it"
"Not really"
"Don't you miss Roman?"
"I don't want to talk about this"
"Fine, but can you come to the show" Caleb stepped closer to me
"No. I don't want to"
Caleb gently pressed his lips on mine. Right there, I was thinking about if I should kiss back or not. My mind didn't even decide yet. My lips involuntary moved. Without thinking, I grasped Caleb's hair, pulling him deeper into the kiss. I guess I really needed this to make me feel better. Just to make me feel wanted
No.......this just isn't right. I should be able to make myself feel better without a man. Yea, I still feel like shit after what Roman said months ago, but....... I just need to think about this more. Think positive about myself. I am a female, dammit! I shouldn't let a man bring me down even though Roman has. Fuck Roman!
I slightly pushed Caleb away"I just can't. I shouldn't. I'm not ready because I'm not in my right frame of mind"
"I understand. I'll see you later. Hopefully at the show"
"OK.... Sure"
Monday Night Raw
I got got backstage. It's the middle of the show. I told Caleb that I would meet him here. Caleb also told me that Roman wasn't going to be here tonight. Thank goodness! The first person I saw was Kayli. I seriously jumped on her
"I've missed you!" Kayli said
I jumped down "I've missed you too. I've missed all of this"
"You gotta come see the girls" Kayli grabbed my hand and pulled me
