I wake up holding a whine bottle with a beer bottle between my legs and Justin at the foot of my bed. I was still naked, just my robe. Geez I got so wasted and just bawled my eyes out talking about Wesley... Oh shit.
*FLASHBACK*
I had my hand gripped in Justin's hair as he held onto my hips with his head between my legs. I was moaning and groaning without any care in the world.
*End of flashback*
I shake my head sitting up. Tell me that was a dream I remembered and that didn't happen last night. I sit the empty wine bottle down and kick Justin to wake up. "What?" He groans. "Wake up!" "Damn..." He mumbles sitting up rubbing his eyes. I groan looking at his shirtless chest. "Justinnn" I whine and he looks at me confused. "What?" "Kayla..." "What abo- oh" he says rubbing the back of his neck. "Oh my gosh! It wasn't a dream was it? It really happened! I cheated on..." I stop talking once I remember once again. "You cheated on Kayla Justin" "no fucking dip" he says sitting up. I started crying. Just to be crying I guess. "She's gonna hate me. I bet Wesley hates me!" I gasp looking up at the celling. "Baby, I was drunk. I-" I stop talking as I realize I'm talking to the ceiling again and he probably couldn't hear me anyways. "Did we?" "Did we what?" "Have sex?" "No Baylee" he says standing up. "It was your idea" "don't blame me!" He says and I laugh wiping my eyes. "What?" He says with a lightly smile. I sniffle shaking my head. I think I'm going crazy? "We're both guilty, although you suggested it" "Baylee" he groans and I shrug. "You did!" "I know but... Ugh you go three months without sex" he says throwing his hands in the air. I smirk shaking my head. "I can... And will have to because my boyfriend is dead" I say and he frowns his face. Wow that's the first time I've actually said that out loud and it hurt. It hurt so bad. Tomorrow was his funeral. I'm sure their wont be a lot of people because he had no family really. He had me though. That's all he needed but he still left me. "Hey, Bay... You're talking to yourself again" Justin says and I shrug. "I don't know what I'm gonna do" "hopefully not drunk yourself to death. So no more drinking for a while okay?" "Okay" I nod agreeing. "Focus on your jobs and go to the gym, hell you can even clean house. Sorry but it needs it" "I know" I laugh looking around. Then i spot a pair of Wesley's underwear in the floor. I stand up and grab his underwear in my hands. I didn't care that they were dirty. I look at Justin and just lose it. I started bawling. No more hugs, no more kisses and no more lovings from him. No more hearing his voice. I fall to the ground keeping his underwear in my arms. Justin bends down hugging me. I didn't want his hugs, I wanted Wesley's hugs. Although I didn't tell him to get off because I needed the company. "It's okay" Justin whispers kissing my forehead. I cried myself to sleep last night. You would think I'd be out of tears by now, I'm not though. "I'm sure he's looking down on you" "he's probably saying 'you need to get off this nasty ass floor and stop crying because them eyes are too damn beautiful and I'm sure you'd hate to redo that pretty makeup of yours' that's exactly what he'd saying if he was here" I say and Justin nods wiping my eyes for me. I didn't even have makeup on, but if I did. "I'm holding your dirty underwear... That's how bad I miss you" I say wishing he could hear me or at least talk back to me. Just something. Come back to already. Justin just holds me and rocks me back and fourth saying stuff to comfort me. I nod holding his arm with Wesley's underwear still in my lap. "Re read the text, come on.. It always makes you smile" he say and I nods unlocking my phone. "Dear baby girl, I'm sorry for what I've done. I'm going to miss you more than anyone on this planet. Believe me when I say that, lol. I've done what I had to do, you helped me stay sober for a complete day and I never thought I'd make it, but I did thanks to you. It was also the worst pain I've ever went through. I can't stand to feel that way and there's only one way to stop it. Just know I'll always be looking down on you and I'll never forget all the great memories we've made. I'll never forget the day I met you. I love you so much although I never got to tell you, I do. Don't be sad, know I wanted this for me. Move on and find a good guy. Although you'll never find anyone as handsome as me. But remember I love you!❤️😘" I read but manage to smile through my tears. "See he loves you and don't want to see you like this" he says and I nods rubbing my eyes. "Now come on, get up" he says pulling me up. I groan rubbing my hands over my face. "Okay I'm going to get ready and we'll go have lunch or something?" "Yeah okay, I'm gonna shower alright?" "Yeah, y-you can borrow Wesley's stuff" "thank you" "you're welcome" I mumble walking into my makeup room. I sit at my desk turning the mirror light on. I twist my hair up then grab my foundation and began my makeup. About an hour and thirty minutes later after I tied my vans. I looked up at Justin. He was struggling to fix his watch so I helped him. "We can take my car" "okay" I nod grabbing my wallet and phone. We get in his car and take off. "Where to?" "Italian?" I say but it came out sounding more as a question. He nods. I knew he liked Italian, and so did I. "Sunday I'm going home" "you are?" I ask and he nods with a smile. "Yeah I missed my family" "I'd say" I whisper and lightly smiles. "Let me guess your in the mood for some creamy fettuccine chicken Alfredo?" "Ugh yes, my mouth waters just thinking about it" I smile and he giggles taking to exit. "And let me guess you want a big plate of spaghetti, extra sauce and bread sticks" "bingo" he says pulling into the restaurant. I lick over my lips getting out and waiting on Justin. "Damn it" he mumbles hiding it face as paparazzi come running towards us. He grabs my arm pushing me towards the door and opening it for me. Once we walk in i groan looking at Justin. "Sorry" he mumbles and I nod. "Two?" "Yes ma'am" Justin smirk at the cute little waitress. Once we sit down I watch him stare at her ass as she walks away. I look away and out the window. "Are you gonna tell Kayla?" "I don't know" he mumbles taking a drink or his water. "I don't want to" "of course you don't, but she needs to know" I say looking at him. He closes his eyes and groans. "I know that it's just..." "It's just what? No girl deserves to be lied to nor cheated on" I say shaking my head. "Are you guys ready to order?" "I am" "me too" Justin says then we order our food. "You wanted it.. As bad as I did" he says making my eyes go wide. "Of course I did, my boyfriend just died and I was drinking a large amount of alcohol trying to forget what happened" I say leaning back in my chair. "I was just a distraction Huh?" "Justin... Yes but-" "but nothing" he says as the waitress sits out food down. "Damn it" I mumble. "Why are you acting like you care?" "Maybe I do!" He says loudly. I look around and see people looking....
