Cypher {Suga X Reader}

Tough Decision

The train whistles in the background; the trees are singing in harmony to the beat of the wind.

"What..?"  I ask, stunned.

Did he just... say... what I think he did..?
Am I hearing things?

Namjoon doesn't say anything, and only leans forward, resting his elbows on his knees, chewing on the stick of the ice cream.

"I... don't really know what to say.." I stammer in response to the silence.

Namjoon quickly glances my way for the first time, eyeing me intensely before turning back to face in front of him. He begins fidgeting with his ice cream stick.

"I'm sorry- I didn't mean to spring this onto you- sorry.." He frantically apologizes

"No, what? Don't apologize.. I'm happy that you told me your feelings! It's not something to be sorry for..." I say in defense, "I just don't know my answer.."

Namjoon turns to look at me, "You dont need to give me an answer, I just wanted you to know" He says with a smile on his face; his mask is now resting on his chin.

I smile back in response.

Wtf just happened??? An idol???? has feelings for me??????
...........
I gotta stop always idolizing them, they're regular people too.. with feelings.....

"You ice cream is melting" Namjoon's statement interrupts my thoughts.

I glance at my hand now semi covered in the sticky substance, "Oh shit you're right!" I say as I instantly begin to inhale the last bit of ice cream and try to clean off my hand.

Namjoon laughs at my embarrassing state and gets out some wet tissues to help me combat my sticky mess.

"Thanks" I laugh as I continue to try and clean myself up.

Our walk back was silent, but not uncomfortable. We still made banter and pointed out things to each other, but both of our minds were constantly wandering around, unaccompanied.

Now that I think about it, this all started with Namjoon. He gave me the second chance I needed at life. He introduced me to the rest of the boys. He saved me...

"Thanks.." I mutter, unintentionally out loud.

Namjoon glances at me, responding with no words and only a confused expression on his face.

Shit

"Sorry, I was just thinking about how my do-over at life started with you, and how grateful I am for it all" I say, looking away from him.

He chuckles in response and pets the top of my head like he usually does,

"This is why I fell in love".

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This is why I fell in love

My room became cleaner than usual, due to my frantic sudden urge to declutter.

This is why I fell in love

I begin to pile a bunch of useless supplies and scrap papers into a garbage bag.

This is why-

Oh can you shut the hell up!!!
..............
You're overthinking this, you idiot

I continue to attempt to deter from my thoughts by proceeding with my impromptu cleaning routine before the sudden call for hydration by my body.

I tiredly get up and head towards the kitchen where I'm faced with the decision to either drink water or an energy drink,

Or both?

I stand there for a good minute deliberating my options before I hear a voice call out to me from the corner of the hallway,

"y/n..? What are you doing it's like 02:00AM".

I turn around and see Seokjin stumbling lazily my way; he's in his pyjamas and his eyes are half open.

When did it get so late???

"Sorry, did I wake you up? I didn't realize it was this late" I say.

It's quiet, would be almost silent if it wasn't for the dog barking outside and my foot involuntarily tapping the floor.

"No it's okay I just came here to get some water.." Seokjin yawns as he reaches into the cupboard for a cup,

"Are you okay?"

I stare at him, going back and forth between wether I tell him about Namjoon or not.

"Well..." I begin, "My- my friend got confessed to by her guy friend, but she hadn't really seen him as anything more than a friend up till the confession. Now she's confused and was asking me for advice, but I suck at topics about love". I cringe at my predictable white lie.

Namjoon isn't really just a regular friend though..

"A friend? You have friends? I never see you leave the house" Seokjin says whilst chuckling to himself.

"Haha very funny" I roll my eyes, "It's a friend from back home"

The eldest member gulps down his drink of water in one quick gulp before dramatically putting the glass cup down on the counter and twirling around to face me.

"Well, lucky for you, I am an expert in these situations", he says; his lethargy was replaced with a newfound energy.

I'm sure you are....

"Have they known each other long?", Seokjin asks, seemingly keen to learn about this sudden dramatic plot in the story of life.

"No.." I reply, "A bit less than a year".

"Hmm... maybe your friend should just try it out and see how it would be like to date the guy?", he suggests.

"But what if she's scared that things wi never be the same if things don't work out!" I beam back, a little too desperately.

"Yeah.... I guess that would be a burden....", He mumbles to himself, "Realistically speaking, she needs to make a decision about wether she's willing to reciprocate his feelings or not. But I think she has to give him a response, even if it's going to be rejection, it's better to confirm this with the guy than to leave them wondering forever".

He's got a point...

"Yeah, I think you're right... Thanks Jin, and sorry for burdening you with problems when you're half asleep" I grin.

Seokjin smiles back in response, and after a quick "goodnight" he heads back to his room.

I need to think about this before I give Namjoon a response...

I stare back at the unopened fridge,

Now.. which one..?
Water, or an energy drink?
It's a tough decision...