The Zombie World (Complete)

(part 14)

L:" i cant do this anymore alicia i cant do this i cant keep lying to clarke"
Lexa said to alicia setting on the ground next to eachother. Alicia saw how much pain her sister was in so she hugged her and lexa let everything out. Alicia waited for her sister to clam down so she can say somthing.
Ali:" lets talk about it, i promise i wont say anything"
L:" i told clarke that it didn't bother me that clarke was pregnant. That i didn't care if the baby was not mine. That i loved it like if it was mine"
Ali:" but"
L:" but the problem is that it dose bother me. That i didn't get her pregnant and i really dont love the baby i hate the baby i hate that its not mine i hate that stuped baby"
Alicia was shocked what just came out of lexa's mouth she though she was happy that clarke was pregnant but she's not.
Ali:"lexa why didn't you tell me that you felt this way"
L:" becuase I thought if i told my slef that i loved the baby and that i was not mad, i could get over it but i cant i just cant"
Ali:" dose clarke now about this in how u feel"
L:"No she doesn't i cant tell her. I love her. If i tell her she's going to hate me and then she's going to want to kill the baby, and i can see she want to keep it, and if she kills it she's going to cry for years and i never want to see her cry she deserves to be happy and if this baby makes her happy then i cant let her kill the baby"
Ali:" lexa you deserve to be happy to you cant just...."
L:" No alicia i rather for her to be happy then me"
Alicia had tears in her eyes now she pulled lexa for a hug. It made her sad that lexa prefers for clarke to be happy then for lexa to not. She wanted for her sister to be happy to but she didn't think that way. It made her hart beak to see her sister in soo much pain
Alicia:"look lexa leason to me"
Lexa looked up at Alicia
Alicia:" look lexa please do me a favor, dont tell clarke about this and just wait intell the baby's born and when that baby's at least 4 years old and you still feel the same...... Thats when you talk to clarke about this okay"
Lexa nodded her head to Alicia to tell her she understood what she meant.
Alicia got up and left and lexa stayed their just a little bit just to make sure she dose not look like she's been crying.
Few hrs past
H:" good night mom"
Hope hugged lexa and gave her a kiss on the cheek and did the same to clarke then she went in the room of luna.
Lexa and clarke went back to their room in the barn and they got in the bed and lexa is spooning clarke.
C:" babe?"
L:" ya"
C:" do you remember how i gave birth to hope"
L:" ya i do....thay had to open you up because the baby was not in the right  preservation why"
C:" i just want to tell you that if that happens again and if i die in the process of that..... Please take care of the baby and hope for me okay"
Lexa turned clarke over to face her.
L:" baby that not going to happen okay"
C:" i know but if it dose promise me that you will take care of the baby and hope with your life"
L:" clarke your not going to die okay i need you to help me with the baby i cant do it all on my own, i love you"
Lexa kissed Clarke's lips and they went back to the position they where in and feel asleep

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