Like ocean to me

Chapter 24

Emily p.o.v

Some say that when you feel empty it's forever. That once the emptiness consumes you that's it. There's nothing that you can do to feel up the weird empty form you have inside you. But if everyone had something to say about emptiness then I'm sure they'd all say something different so I'm trying to stay positive and not completely loose my mind.

It's not very easy to stay positive when the boy you like has just been kidnapped and you cant even do anything because your hours away and even if you wanted to go it would be impossible because minors cant buy plane tickets without the parents permission. And I certainly don't have my parents permission.

Not easy? Who am I kidding this fucking torture.

And, on top of all that, I've just come to a conclusion about my feelings towards Andrew! He did always have a talent with bad timing, but why did he have to disappear right after we kissed? And why am i thinking about that kiss? That should literally be the last thing on my mind right now, I mean, ANDREW IS FREAKING MISSING.

But truth be told it isn't. What are we now? I don't think it matters anyway since his probably scared in a dark dungeon

oh no, now i'm thinking about dungeons.

A loud knock interrupts my line of (terrible) thoughts. Definitely not opening

The knocks intensify by the second but I don't care.

- Emily please open up! I know your in there! I've been hearing you crash things for hours and I know our parents are out.

its Sean.

oh god what do I tell him? Do I even tell him anything? should i just ramble on like:

Hey I just came back from France and guess what? I saw your long lost brother. And you know what else? I slapped him and ran away. By the way, did you know that your brother is into some deep magic stuff. oh! And I kissed Andrew! two times! witch I've been wanting to do for some time now but I just couldn't admit it to myself. oh why you ask? well he was attacked by some really creepy monsters who by the way are actually searching for me. Anyway, my happiness didn't last long since Andrew was kidnapped. By who you wonder? Well I have no idea. But probably the same people who want to kill me. 

- come on Emily! I can tell you need someone to talk to...

'I do as a matter of fact, just not you', I almost shout back, but instead slowly get up and open the door. Sean is very persistent. He might've slept here had I not oped the door.

- Hey... what's wrong? you look terrible... - He says in a soft comforting voice.

- Just... leave ... I want to be alone right now. - I reply weakly

- come on, just tell me! Me and Daniel have been hearing you brake things for hours now! what ever happened to you must be absolutely terrible for you to be disorganizing and braking things like this!

Gosh I can't even look him in the eyes.

- It's ok... you don't have to tell me... let's just... get the house together ok?... I'll help you. - he says calmly, giving me a friendly hug - come on, ill make you some tea.

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Waking up has never felt so hard and painful. knowing that I was able to fall asleep is quite disappointing too, how could I sleep when I don't even know how Andrew is doing? But I guess a lot of tea did the job. It also made me wake up with the urgent need to pee.

- gonna skip that part ahead haha -

I'm so glad Sean helped me clean up all the mess I made yesterday, my parents are probably going to be back today and I really don't want them asking questions.

what do I do now?

sadly reread a book while self pitying?

Pestering Nia?

Pestering Nia.

I change from yesterdays clothes (that are more then a little bit smelly by now) and put on a large hoodie and sweat pants. I know its summer but my soul feels cold and so do I.

I lazily hop down the stairs and knock on Madisons door that is quickly opened by a grumpy Nia.

- oh. It's you - she snorts.

- Let's go to France - I directly say, there is no time to waste.

- UGH. Don't you get it? I  C A N T ! Also you're carrying a gigantic amount of power that can destroy civilizations and that you have no control over, and the same animals that kidnapped Andrew want them! And you can be sure they'll use them for terrible things! plus they'll kill you so its a loose loose!

- If these powers are so dangerous why don't you just teach me how to use them so we can use them to help an - I'm drastically stopped by Nia's hand blocking my mouth stopping me from complaining further, then I see Madison and stop struggling. For some reason tho, she looks more panicked of me saying moon warrior stuff the usual.

- oh Emily, come on in! - Madison says, cheerfully invites

- don't mind if I do - I say freeing from Nia's grip and entering.

- by the way i was just about to leave to go get some food - Madison says, taking her keys from the bowl next to the door - Emily take care of her - she points at Nia - shes been feeling kinda down recently. 

- what? No!!!- Nia widens her eyes, finally looking more aware of her surroundings.  

Madison doesn't respond to this and just closes the door behind her waving at us. 

- see someone has a crush - i say jumping on the sofa. 

- what? no! i mean, what even is that - she says scrunching her nose. 

- oh its when your heart beats faster and, well you know kind of how i feel about Andrew. 

- oh that, hell no! - she says shaking her head from side to side. 

- yesssss you do, And she's going to know about it unless you teach me how to use my powers. It's your choice. 

Nia crosses her arms and looks at me with pure astonishment.

- Your evil - she sighs.

- Only if you make me - I wink.

- fine get up. And I don't like her ok? Lets just make that clear, I just don't want you to go around spreading lies.