Camila/You - Saving you

Chapter 17

Camila/You – Saving You – Chapter 17

A/N: DO NEVER BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY THAT I AM GOING TO STOP WRITING FOR A WHILE! THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME! WRITING IS LIKE A DRUG TO ME AND I CAN'T SPEND MORE THAN A WEEK WITHOUT WRITING!!

Anyway, I hope you are going to like this chapter haha!

Your point of view.

Black and white. That's what everything seem to be for me now. There was nothing important in this world anymore, nothing beautiful, nothing that could make someone feel anything but fear. It was just black and white. My life was passing by in front of my eyes and I was now only waiting for the day my life would end, that's the only thing that could happen to me now. As I walked up the stairs of the building my eyes fell on a mirror, a mirror that represented me perfectly, a broken one. Despite the clear breaks on it, I could still see my reflection. What I was looking at at the moment was what was left of me. A simple carcass. There were no more ruins inside like I used to say, now there was just nothing. A feeling of pure emptiness was the only thing present inside me since I...since I had left the city. I had lost the notion of time now. I had no idea how long it had been since I had left...her. I had stopped counting the days after 6 months away from her, the pain becoming unbearable. I had no idea how I had managed to survive in this dying world. I was barely taking care of my safety, truth is I didn't even care about it most of the time. I just fought them because it had become a habit to do so. I felt like there were less numerous though. I didn't know why, but I felt like walkers were starting to disappear. I was probably just dreaming though. I started walking up the stairs again and finally reached the roof. No walkers here either but I wasn't going to complain. I sat on the edge of the room and contemplated the emptiness of the streets and immediately was reminded of the emptiness of my heart and of how I lived the last 5 months. Those could be summarized to one little sentence: I felt very still and empty, the way the eye of a tornado must feel, moving dully along in the middle of dead streets. Every day was the same as the previous one. Every day I felt myself drown more and more. Every day I would look even more like the undead monsters walking down our streets. I was probably going crazy now. Here and there I would hear someone whisper her name causing me to turn around hoping I would see her or someone from the time, but each time I turned around I found myself alone realizing that it was just my heart missing her. I was the only one to blame though, I had decided to leave and now that I was here dying to see her again I couldn't help but think that I had been an idiot that day. But then I would realize that it was better off that way, I had fucked up and I didn't deserve a place back in the city anymore so I just stuck to the streets. I met a few people here and then and they had asked me if they wanted to tag alone but I never accepted. If I wasn't next to Camila then I preferred being alone. My mind was clouded by thoughts of her. Everyday, I would replay in my mind the memories I had of her hoping that I would be able to find her again. I was going crazy to the point that I happened to imagine her walking down the streets sometimes. Just like today. Although it wasn't her that I was imagining but someone else. As I was seating on the edge of the building my attention was brought to someone running down the streets and followed by a few walkers. I was going to help the girl who was trying to escape but she lifted her head up and I saw her green eyes, recognizing her directly. Lauren Jauregui was there.. Or at least my mind was picturing Lauren Jauregui running in front of me. I couldn't take those hallucinations anymore, being reminded of this life I once had just broke me more than I already was. So I