I'm back with my girls, finally. I missed rehearsing with them. hay, it's been a month since my drama ended at umuwi na sila mama with ryle of course. i focused on our group. busy with rehearsing, making music and some guesting, yes finally i'm learning how to produce music i want to help unnie making our songs.
you can't just be a singer sa industry na 'to kailangan matuto ka din to make music mas masarap mag perform ng ikaw mismo gumawa ng kanta, kaya din siguro dumami ang fans namin because SM announced that our songs produced by unnie. we're changing our theme this comeback ill contribute on lyrics pa lang but i can agree on some beats and melody.
our producer still teaching me the basics sa equipment, i really want to try those genre na halo halo, that's kpop we can use any genre. i've been reading a lots of books lately more on psychology gusto ko din mag contribute sa music videos namin. I'm really happy suportado kami ng agency for the things That we discover on ourselves.
since its summer, 4carat and MFY( band of chan young) decided to go at jeju island for a summer vacation together with our managers, biglaan lang plinano yun nung nagkita kita kami sa cafeteria ng SM. kumakain kami tapos bigla silang tumabi tapos nagyaya na si eun woo the vocalist of the band. his uncle have a private resort daw dun eh kakatapos lang ng promotions nila dahil nag comeback sila this month.
after we checked our schedule with our managers at okay naman, our managers asked permission ng CEO and luckily they said yes.
we choose to travel by yacht this time, she borrows her dad's. I can't with this people sobrang yayaman hahaha, i just wore a high waisted black shorts and a simple white balenciaga tshirt.
im wearing bikini inside since its a beach saka by sea ang travel namin, they started drinking beers, tequilas and cocktails. While i'm here at the bow drinking my zero calories coke nandun sila sa deck nagiinom di naman sila wild nagsa soundtrip lang sila, talking ganon. im hoping they're not gossiping other artists.
chan young came to me "so, what it is?" i confused looked at him, "what?" he pinched my waist "come on julia laureen, did you talked to him already?" he's voice is too loud "ya! too loud!" pinagtitripan nanaman ako neto nakakainis "do you think i dont know who's your girl huh?"
"HAHAHAHAHA PINAY PA NGA!"
black mail-an na nga "okay i'll shut up, so what happened?"
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"labas tayo?" ryle asked me to go out with him abnormal ba sya?? " gago ka ba, ma picture-an tayo"
"tange 'di yan!" nasa terrace lang naman kami, seoul is very beautiful lalo na pag madaling araw, may mga lugar na parang 6pm pa lang but halos eh tahimik na talaga. walang nagsasalita sa aming dalawa we're both spacing out or ewan??
"sorry" ryle said, hindi ko alam kung bakit at saan parang wala naman dapat ika-sorry "huh, saan?"
"for coming back into your life, i know i've confused you between your career and me. nag bakasali lang talaga ako na pwede pa, kahit mahirap pero naramdaman ko na din naman na wala na when i looked at you performing,practicing,acting and listening to you kung anong nangyare sa araw mo. i really know na masaya ka na dyan at gugustuhin mo pang sumaya lalo..
i'm just looking at him and he's looking at me, kala ko din awkward pero hindi. mas ramdam ko nga ang sincerity nya. " sorry kasi napahirapan nanaman kita, sorry kasi sinaktan nanaman kita. tama nga sila chel masasaktan kita in a different way pag tinuloy ko 'to"
he looked at my eyes "you don't have to be sorry, ako yung nang gulo sa buhay mo ngayon, akala ko lang talaga magw work ayoko din naman pagsisihan that i didn't even try."
sobrang chill lang nung usap namin hindi sya naiyak o kahit ako, maybe we both know na hindi talaga magwo work ito. atleast malinaw na.. "thank you, for understanding my situation" 'yan na lang ang nasabi ko my mind and heart come in peace. "atleast diba we tried.." i told him i can't help but hug him "wrong timing ka nanaman kasi" i told him and he laughed
"sorry na ngaaa hahaha don't get sick okay stay healthy. payag na ko jowain mo yung chan young na yun" ang feeling talaga, he's caressing my hair while he's talking "luh bago ka pa pumayag,jowa ko na noh"
we just hugged each other, hanggang sa nag goodnight na din kami sa isa't isa. it was the last goodnight i receive from him. tulog sya nung umalis ako ng hotel sinilip ko na lang sya sa room nya bago tuluyang umalis.
