shifted

chapter 4- third year

      once i opened my eyes i expected to be in my bed. the lights out and the time being around, 2 am. but when i opened my eyes, that's not what i see. instead im in my dorm. still at hogwarts. my heart drops.

     i jump up and look around, im still here. im still at hogwarts. did i say the wrong word? no, i vividly remember choosing that word.

     "prisoner?" nothing happened.

     "prison?" nothing happened.

     "prison break?" nothing happened.

     "prison, prison, prison, prison."

     am i stuck? i can't be stuck. my heart begins to race.

i lay back down on the bed and close my eyes, "i will return to my cr."

when i open my eyes im still here. im still here. fuck. wait this is a good thing right? i want to stay here. but why? why can't i go back. it's suppose to let you leave whenever, even if you forget your safe word.

     what's going on? am i dead? did i die in my real life and this is where it left me. am i in a fucking coma? oh my god. but i don't have to go back there. back to a place i hated. i can stay here forever. that's good. right? right. it's fine. it'll be alright, just like harry styles said. wait oh my god i'll never see my real life again.

     if this is really happening and i can't escape i won't see my mom. ever again. what were my last words. oh shit. i missed dinner, i skipped the only time we ever have together to come here. tears spill from my eyes.

i was suppose to be happy.

i am happy.

im happy.

it's okay.

shut up, you're overthinking things. this is probably like just a little mistake once i fall asleep i'll be brought back.

      i lay down in my bed and try to fall asleep. twisting and turning, i try to calm myself. finally my mind goes blank and i drift off to sleep.

       "hey y/n! wake up you're going to be late for breakfast!" i hear a voice say to me while lightly shaking me. 

   ahh okay im back at home. see i knew it, i knew it  was just a little mistake. everything's okay.

    i open up my eyes, rubbing them to adjust to who i see standing beside me, slightly shaking me.

     it's pansy.

   i almost scream, and jump away from her. oh my god. im fucking dead.

     she quickly backs up seeing the look on my face, "woah, are you okay?" she asks in her usual annoying voice.

    "im fine, b-bad dream." i rub my eyes and get out of bed. still shaking.

    "oh okay, im heading to breakfast." she walks out the door leaving me behind.

    so im either dead, in a coma, or dead. images of my mom flashed in my head. she's all alone. she lost my dad, and now me? i let out a sob and fell to the floor. this is all my fault. what the fuck did i do.

    this can't be real.

  "wake up!" i yell.

  "please wake up, mom- i want to see her."

  "prison, p-prison." i start to cry again.

i look at myself in the mirror. is this whole thing real. is that the reason nothing i scripted worked? because i died? did i die? i need answers.

    i pull myself from the ground and rush to get dressed. im dead and at hogwarts. i mean i'd rather be here than in a black dark room, as my afterlife.

   i can't tell anyone this. right? if i am dead, i can't tell them im a muggle. well im not really. because i can do magic. i scripted myself to do that. wait- i scripted it, so somethings do actually happen when i script it. so what does this mean?

    then an idea popped into my head, i could ask dumbledore to take me back to the muggle world. i think i could do that. my head hurts. i don't understand what's going on. im so confused. if i told dumbledore he'd have to send me away, i am a muggle. but i can do magic. okay so i'll just go for it. rip off the bandaid. the worst he can do is send me back and oblivate my memories. oh no. wait i don't want that.

     i start to cry again, then I realize it's probably been 20 minutes and my first class starts in less than  10 minutes. i decide to just go. if this is the last day here, i want it to be perfect. unless im dead, then well shit.

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sorry that this is was unbelievably short. but yeah hope you like it😁👍