shifted

chapter 7- third year

i blink. the world spins for a moment. and i feel dumbledore grab my shoulder to steady me. i just stand there staring at him. waiting for him to say 'but you can still go back' or 'we will find a way' but he doesn't say anything.

"so im here forever?" i ask still staring at him emotionless.

"yes, y/n."

im really never going to see my mom again. i fucked up and switched realities. now im never going to see my mom ever again.

"so my mom won't have me. she'll be alone."

"well not exactly, she'll have you, but not this version. another you is there right now with her, but you- well you are here."

i smile. at least she won't be alone. but i will.

"y/n, i think it will be best if i- oblivate your memories. of your mother, your old life. anything you remember about being a muggle- i can take away." dumbledore says to me and waits for my reaction.

i think for a second. i won't be in pain, remembering her. maybe this is best for me. i could start a new life. it's not like i can go back to my old one. maybe this is what i need.

"yes, okay do it."

"this will wipe out anything you knew before coming here, anything about us- your family. everything expect for when you came here."

"i'll replace the memories of your parents with new ones of your pureblood family, who died long ago. okay?"

"okay." i say without thinking. i don't really care. i can't stand the thought of not seeing my mom. it's better to just not have the thoughts anymore.

he looked at me and smiled, "you will be alright, y/n."

"oblivate."

    i woke up in my dormitories, i think it's around 9 pm. i quickly change into sweatpants and a shirt. all the girls where sleeping, so i silently open the door and head down to the common rooms.

    i quietly step down the staircase, praying no one hears me. the doors open and i walk in, my eyes land on platinum blonde hair. draco.

    "hey," i say to him hopping onto the couch.

    "oh, i thought everyone was asleep." draco says looking at the fire.

     "not me."

     "wanna go to that one place- the astronomy tower?" i ask remembering the trip we made the first time i met him.

       "sure."

   we walk up the stairs, and this time he waits for me and makes sure im still with him.

     once we get there the cold hits me instantly. i shiver, wrapping my arms around my chest.

   draco looks at me, and takes off his jacket.

      "here, take it."

      i grab it generously, and pull it on. i snuggle into it feeling warmer.

    "thank you." i say smiling.

    we walk to the railing and i grab the bar and lean over, looking down below us.

    "after dinner, where did you go?" he asks, staring off in front of us.

     "dumbledore needed me."

     "oh? are you sure weasley didn't snog you agian?" he asks turning his attention to me.

     "what? again? no, no dumbledore needed to see me about classes. that's all." i say truthfully.