shifted

chapter 61- sixth year

"um- no."

"don't lie." she mutters, looking up at me for my reaction.

i let out a shaky breath and sit on her bed, across from her.

"who told you?"

she clears her throat and wipes her single tear, "draco."

"what?" i ask, feeling my heart drop.

he fucking told her?

"yeah, he just came in a blurted it at me." she explains.

"oh."

"you lied to me for so long y/n."

"no- it wasn't like that. my memories they were oblivated in my third year. i didn't even know myself for a long time-"

"when you'd find out then?"

"remember the day i came back from the ministry?"

"that long? you hid it from me that long?" she yells, i can tell she's pissed.

"i was scared daphne."

she frowns, "but you didn't feel scared with draco?"

"yes- i mean no. he found out, i never told him."

she shakes her head.

"so you were just planning on not telling anyone?" daphne yells.

i flinch at the loudness of her voice.

"im so sorry daphne. do you want me to explain everything to you?" i ask guilt pouring out of my voice.

"i would like that."

after i get done explaining literally everything she just stares at me with really wide eyes.

"wow- uhm."

"you don't have to say anything, it's okay."

she nods and takes a deep breath.

"i think- i think i want to be alone right now." she says, rubbing her temples.

i nod slowly and get up. when I look back at her, she's just staring at the floor frozen.

i collect myself and walk out of the dorm- closing the door on the way out.

i trudge down to the common rooms, but right as im about to step in something catches my eye.

a figure. a tall figure walking in the direction of draco's room. i turn my head completely and see the back of draco, entering his dorm.

he didn't see me because i was behind a pillar. part of me wants to follow him- to apologize.

actually all of me did. every single nerve in my body wanted me to go to him and plead for some type of forgiveness.

i try to shake the feeling off and keep walking. but the feeling overtakes me and i spin around, and start to run to draco's dorm.

why the fuck am i doing this? he already hates me.

i close my eyes and calm myself before slightly knocking on his door. the knock was soft and quiet.

i hear his footsteps slowly walk to the door. my palms begin to get sweaty.

"breathe y/n- breathe." i whisper silently to myself.

the door opens and i look up.

he stares at me once before closing the door on my face, but i put my hand on the door to stop its closing.

"draco- please." i whimper.

he tries harder to push it shut but i won't budge.

"im sorry." i say and he slowly lets go of the door.

"im really really sorry."

he's behind the door so i can't see him but i can hear his loud breathing.

"go away y/n."

"draco- please. im so sorry."

he stays silent.

i close my eyes tight and i notice a tear roll down my cheek.

oh my god please stop crying.

my eyes look up slowly and i see draco now looking at me. he's stepped in front of me away from the door.

"i didn't have one. a choice. i didn't get a choice y/n." he says softly, still looking at me.

"i k-know, im so sorry draco." another tear falls from my eye.

"you said i was evil." he says, and i see tear streaks on his pale face.

i look up at him, "i was just mad- mad that you didn't tell me. i didn't mean any of it."

he looks away from me and to the floor.

"im so sorry."

"stop saying you're sorry." he speaks harshly.

"i don't want your pity."

"draco- i was just mad. i didn't process it right. it was big news and i-"

"big news? big fucking news huh? you know what else was big fucking news? you being a muggle from another shitty reality." his voice is filled with anger.

"draco-"

"just leave."

"n-no."

"no?" he let's out laugh.

"i said leave!" he shouts loudly, i flinch.

slowly my eyes travel to his face and he stares at me. his eyebrows are furrowed and his mouth formed into a frown.

"why did you flinch?" he asks quietly.

"i didn't-"

"i saw you." he interrupts.

"are you scared of me?" it sounds like he's scared of my response.

"no- no. draco im not."

"please don't be scared of me."

"im not draco- i swear."

"i don't want you to be scared of me y/n." his voice comes out as shaky as mine.

"i never am. im not scared of you."

i see a tear fall from his eye.

"im scared of me." he says quietly.

something in me wanted to wrap my arms around draco and hold him tight. and so i did exactly that.

i walked forwards and gently placed my arms around him. he places his head onto my chest, and i can hear quiet muffled sobs.

"im not scared of you." i whisper into his neck.

his grip around me gets tighter and my shirt begins to get soaked. but that's the least of my worries.

i slowly take him over to his bed and he breaks away from me to climb into his bed.

i stand beside the bed, watching him curl up.

"will you lay with me?" draco questions, it's so quiet you can barely hear him.

"yes."

i climb in and lay beside him, staring up at the ceiling.

"you know when we were doing amortentia in class?" draco whispers, facing away from me.

"yes." i respond.

"coconut, strawberries, and rain."

i smile softly.

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