Living For Tomorrow

CHAPTER 13

Grace

I've spent the entire night awake, overthinking and processing all things about myself that I've been recently reminded of. So far I know that my parent's are Iynana and William and that I have a younger brother named
.......never mind scratch that I actually don't quite know his name.

Not long after his banter a nurse suggested that they all leave me to myself for some time, she said that it'll help with my memory and stuff.

The only thing it did was make me frustrated. I have so many questions and the answers to those lay in the minds of the people that were in this room,now all I have are meaningless minor details and a head full of nothing.

The cherry on top is the fact that I'm someone's girlfriend, how could I have so easily forgotten about something so intimate. Two years of my life was spent sharing it with someone else and I have no recollection of anything.

It honestly blows my mind, it confuses me even more when I think back to the moment he kissed me.

Why did I kiss him back? Was that some form of muscle memory, or does some part of me actually remember being with the one called Zach.

The feeling in my head is like when you're so close to reaching something on a table next to you and you feel your fingertips brush against the item but thats all there is, because no matter how much you want to reach it you physically can't.

I feel like there's something holding me back from jumping off a cliff that has all the answers lying beneath it but is the risk of breaking all my bones and becoming immobile worth the price of peace at mind.

I'm not gonna get any answers by sitting around and feeling sorry for myself so I need to get up and go in search of the cliff, my cliff.

I know that nothing makes sense right now, but I trust that it will in time I just hope that my new reality is like how I imagine, It would be really disappointing if it's everything I hoped that it wasn't.

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"So from now on you'll have physical therapy every Sunday, Monday and Wednesday, your scheduled to be here at 3 in the afternoon so basically right after school. Any further questions and inquires feel free to call us." The nurse finishes as she passes the schedule and prescriptions in her hand over to me.

My mom and dad shakes the nurse's hand and thanks her for her services.

"Ready to go hun?" Ask my dad as he places his hand on my lower back.

"Um yeah" I reply feeling really nervous about going home.

My doctor cleared me to go home but I had to promise I'd keep my activity at bare minimum, I didn't see a problem with it as it seems that I don't really go out that much.

I say this because no friends have come to visit, not even like a bestfriend. I've been awake for 2 days now and the only person other than my parents that's always here is Zach.

It's kinda nice having him around, I like that he talks to me like if nothing happened, it really makes me feel less embarrassed and hopeless that I can't remember much. I may not feel any romantic feelings towards him but I can definitely see why I'd be his friend, and who knows maybe with time and patience that will change.

Speaking of the devil he appears through the door with car keys in his hand,"Are y'all ready to go, the car's ready" he informs before making his way towards me to take the contents of my hand into his own.

With the help of my dad, we make our way out towards the parking lot and we stop infornt of two vehicles. "Honey your wth us, Zach will be following behind in his car." My mom speaks up and opens the door to their van.

"I was wondering if I could-"

"Its alright hun , what is it that you want" she encourages as she caresses my cheek.

"Can maybe ride with Zach, I know that your my parents but I feel most comfortable with him at the moment, I hope that's ok with you." I inquire hoping that I haven't upset them.

My mom looks a bit taken back but quickly covers it up "If that's what you want then it's fine. William help me get the rest of her stuff the car."

"Are you sure sweetheart, your mom and I-" "Will, help me with her stuff." My mom interrupts as she continues to pack the car.

Zach wraps his hand around my shoulder and kisses me on my temple,"Looks like your riding shot gun." He exclaims which makes me laugh.

He helps me into the front seat making sure that I'm comfortable he then rushes back to his side of the car and starts the engine.

My parents drive off and Zach and I follow soon after. The ride is a bit silent, but it isn't as awkward as I expected.

I hesitantly turn my gaze towards Zach to see him happily bopping his head to the music on radio, he catches me staring and I instantly duck my head in hope of hiding my blush.

I can't deny that he's very attractive, thumbs up to me for having such an impeccable taste.

"See something you like?" He aks, in return deepening the embarrassment I already feel.

I cover my face with hands regretting not riding with my parents. "I'm sorry, I thought that maybe if I looked at you maybe something would come back, I was just trying to remember."

Zach grins at my despair and reaches across the console with his free hand and entwines his fingers with mine.

"You know you always did that, when we first started dating. We'd be driving and you'd look over at me like if nothing else mattered, those are some the moments when you became my forever. It's scary to think that I almost lost that, that I almost lost you."

He wipes away the lone tear on my cheek before I can even realize that I was crying.

It fucking sucks that I have to relearn how to love this person when I don't even know who I am.

Who is Grace Jones and where is the blue eyed boy that she's been dreaming about.

I've been trying so hard to push how I feel in the back of my mind but I can't when I have Zach's emerald green eyes are staring into my soul.

This is gonna be a lot harder than I imagined.